April Avery's Stories Compilation

Eleutheromania

Written by eyyden

All my life
I'm pleasing mom and dad
I did nothing
But to obey what they want

I tried so hard
To meet their expectations
But sometimes,
My efforts aren't just enough

"You should have tried harder!"
Dad once said
When I wasn't able to get
A passing mark on my test

Even though I did my very best
What do I expect?
They still won't appreciate it
Nor recognize it in the end

Everytime I get
A high grade on my subject
I don't know why
But I'm not contented

Maybe because
My parents are perfectionist
They still won't notice it
Until I'm at the top and highest

A life like this
Is so tiring
My daily routine
Is very stressing

I woke up everyday
And go to school and study there
Then I go back home
And the cycle repeats again

There are times
I am asking myself
What am I doing?
Am I even enjoying?

My parents never asked me
What are the things that makes me happy
They're so busy on their works
And not on their only daughter

Why are mom and dad
Like this?
Do they really care
About my feelings?

I wanted to tell them
That I'm not enjoying my life anymore
I wanted to experience
The happiness I'm longing for

There came a time when I decided for myself
Tell me, am I a bad daughter?
When all I want is to know
Where my passion and I will go

I wanted to end this agony
But I don't know how to
I suddenly remembered what someone told me
Those words that linger on my soul and body

"Say what you have to say
If they understand, then great
If not, too bad because it's your life
And you're doing it anyway"

(excerpt from Something Spectacular)

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