Hisoka stares at the endstand , not being able to believe what he sees. Why is chrollo texting illumi? If it was a job, he would have called. Hisoka thought. Unable to resist his curiosity, he reached for the phone. He hesitated. Of coarse illumi isn't cheating on him. That would be devestating and he loves hisoka after all. Still, hisoka reached for the phone and pressed "open" on the message. The message read : " Last night was something unforgettable. I wish hisoka was able to join but under short notice I had to make the best decision. You've got skill and i am glad you reached out to work for me. You'll be payed double tonight and we have a hotel room already booked for us. Make sure you bring a suit and extra. " .. Hisoka exited out of the message and put the phone back. What happened last night? He thought. He looked down at his sleeping lover. Is he still my lover? He thought. Hisoka got out of the bed to clear his thoughts in the living room. He noticed illumi's keys and wallet on the counter and his shoes firmly planted on the floor beside. Illumi must have had a long night. He even left the kitchen light on. Hisoka started to go to the fridge when he noticed something strange. An envelope underneath illumi's wallet. Hisoka then opened the envelope to find a folded up paper. He unfolded it and it was an address. Must be the address to the hotel. He looked at the back of the envelope to see illumi's name with hearts over the I's . He couldn't believe what he saw. He put it all back to as it was before and clenched the counter's edge. What has illumi been up to ? He looks at the time and it read 8:09a.m . Illumi will be up shortly. Hisoka then goss to the fridge to get breakfast condiments and starts to prepare a meal for him and illumi. In the back of his mind he thinks he should just trust him but after what hes seen he started having doubts. He cooks the eggs sunny side up just the way illumi likes them. He then skillet-fries the bacon. He pops bagels into the toaster and starts to pull out the cream cheese when he hears illumi yawn in the hallway. He puts the condiments on the counter and begins to pour orange juice for himself and gets coffee for illumi. "Good morning handsome" says illumi as he hugs hisoka from behind. Hisoka doesn't say a word and gathers the food that he's prepared for them. "How'd you sleep?" Illumi asks as he lets go to take his seat at the table. "With my eyes shut" hisoka responds as he puts illumi's plate of food on the table. He then takes his food and sits at the counter to eat. Unable to even look at his former lover. "What is wrong hisoka?" Illumi asks as he sips his coffee. Hisoka starts to eat and put a finger up to pause the conversation. He finishes his food and places the plate in the sink. "Can you do the dishes today ? Ive been doing them the past week and im going to find a job today ." Hisoka says as he heads down the hallway to his bedroom. Hisoka pulls out an outfit out of the closet and lays it on the bed. Soon after illumi enters and stands in the doorway. Hisoka begins undressing and heads towards the bathroom. All of a sudden a needle hits the doorframe infront of him. "Hisoka. What the hell is going on?" Illumi starts to get irritated. Hisoka just stars at illumi. Illumi then walks towards hisoka and kisses him softly. Hisoka doesnt kiss back. Something isn't right. Illumi traces his hands down hisoka's abs and undoes his pants and licks his lips. "Ive missed you my love." He cooed into hisoka's ear. Hisoka scoffs and opens the bathroom door. "What the fuck hisoka!?" Illumi then pulls hisoka and pushes him on the bed. "What the fuck, to you too !" Hisoka hollard as he pushed illumi away. " i dont want to talk. Have fun with chrollo tonight" he says as he jolts to the bathroom and quickly locks the door. Illumi sits on the end of the bed and wonders what hisoka meant by that. He decides to grab his phone and look through the messages between him and hisoka. But he stops when he sees "chrollo lucifer" about their messages. He clicks on the name and he sees the message chrollo had sent this morning. "Shit" he thought. He threw the phone on the bed and dashed for the door. He knocks and begs for hisoka to come out. He then hears the shower running and he returns to the bed.
Hisoka sits on the floor next to the tub as the water runs. What am i supposed to do? He thought as he clutched the bathroom rug. He felt his eyes start to water. He stood up and watched a tear fall. Oh how he never felt like this before. He had never loved anyone before. Other than chrollo. Who broke him completely. He clutched the sink as his tears began to fall. Why the fuck was illumi with chrollo? Why is he going to be with him tonight? He stared at himself in the mirror. What the fuck is wrong with me? He thought as he punched the mirror. Blood then streamed off his hand into the sink. "Shit" he cursed as he made his way to the shower.
Illumi thought about the night before. He had been seeing chrollo just to make some extra cash to help out as much he could with hisoka. Ever since he and chrollo stopped working together, he had been constantly fighting at the arena and refused to get another assassination job. But last night, something happened that he was not proud of. He made the worst mistake. After his mission he had a few drinks with chrollo to celebrate killing a man that they had been after for weeks. He remembered slightly having too many drinks and asked for a ride home. So chrollo took him to his place to help wash him up to avoid hisoka seeing illumi so wasted. He remembered chrollo and him kissing. The memory pierced his heart knowing that he had let this happen and that hisoka would not forgive him. It wasnt just a kiss. This kiss ended up in the bed with his legs wrapped around chrollo as he moaned his name in his ear. He tried to erase the thought but the next thing he could remember is being deep inside of chrollo as chrollo pulled illumi's hair and moaned his name as he came on illumi's chest.
Hisoka came out of the bathroom in a towel and a wrapped fist. He looked at illumi who had tears in his eyes looking up at him. Hisoka bit his lip and shook his head in disappointmentand grabbed his close and went back into the bathroom.
Illumi had never cried, but knowing he may lose the only person who loved him surely gave him a reason to wail. He layed back and covered his face. "Oh what have i done" he cried in his hands. He pulled himself together and heard hisoka yelling in the bathroom . "Fuck!" "i fucking knew it!" "son if a bitch!" "why the fuck am i so stupid!?" Echoed into the room. Illumi stood and started to walk out of the room when he heard the bathroom door open. He turned to see hisoka staring at him with puffy pink eyes. "Shit i fucked up big time" he thought as he was about to apologize but hisoka beat him to the punch. A card had shot directly above where he stood. That would have been bad if it him him. He starred at hisoka and hisoka was already getting ready to attack again. "Hisoka lets talk" illumi said as he crouched to dodge the next card. "Fuck you, illumi." Hisoka responded as he ran and grabbed illumi by the throat and held him against the wall. In that split second , illumi had already sent a needle into hisoka's neck. Hisoka then released illumi and took the needle out. They began punching at eachother, somehow they ended up fighting down the hall, breaking the wall mirror and the hall light as they went. Illumi saw a chance and took it by kissing hisoka hard as he grabbed him by the throat and slammed him on the ground. "Let me fucking explain hisoka!" Hisoka stared up at him with his eyes watering. "What is there to explain. You dont love me. " hisoka said as he tried to push illumi off. "Hisoka that isnt true. I have been working with chrollo yes thats true but ive been makig extra money to help you get food and pay rent. My family doesnt pay me the same as they used to since i left to be with you. Last night, i got drunk and chrollo and i ... " he let go of hisoka's throat and wiped his face "chrollo and i had sex ladt night after he took me to his house to help me sober up before coming home. I did not want you to see me drunk. But i swear to you it meant nothing." He stared down at his lover and hisoka had a tear fall out of his left eye. He tried to wipe it off his temple but hisoka pushed his hand away. "Do not touch me." Hisoka ordered as he pushed illumi off him. He stood and grabbed his keys off the table and opened the door. Without turning around he said "ill see you tomorrow. Have fun with chrollo tonight." He said as he left the apartment.
((I will finish this soon but it started getting emotional and i was so caught up in it that i felt hisoka's pain. Ill be back tomorrow to continue!! I hope you enjoy!)
