Not (Complete)

Chapter 4

---Kyle's pov---

I start on my way home.

I walk home alone, the bus is too crowded and annoying.

Do I really think I love him?

What if I don't? I can't risk our relationship on a maybe.

Is our friendship really worth it?

I like being friends... Sometimes. Sometimes I just want to tell him everything.

Everything and anything that I've ever thought or felt.

But I won't.

I'm too much of a coward. I'm not willing to risk it, not unless I know for sure nothing can go wrong.

But I can't.

You can't know the future and things are always bound to go wrong one way or another.

It's always when you least expect it. Is it upsetting? Yes. Very.

Do I even want him to know? Not really. If rather he never find out. If he never knows, I can stay near him. I can stay his friend and he won't hate me,

And it's just generally better this way.

It's better this way.

Keep telling yourself that.