I can see my reflection in your eyes

My heart are puzzles

Juvia's Pov

I saw what I did not want to see. I'm covering my mouth  and try don't let any sounds from my sobbing. Gray and Lucy are kissing. My mind was blank. My emotions are mixing up, I asked myself should I'm happy for them or it is just a pain feeling. I turn my back and walk away.

The tears are flowing into the air while I walked to my house. I hold my key, my hands are shaking, tears just keep falling down on my cheeks. Finally, I can go into my room now. Lying down on the bed tears are falling down on the pillow , make it sounds like raindrops are falling down on the ground. Drip drip drop...

Obviously, today was not really cold but inside my heart were puzzles.  Even though,  my heart was beating but it was frozen. Only thing I can hear right now are tears, just tears. Drip drip drop, that sound familiar when I first met Gray. The gloomy day, rain kept pouring, I was the only one stand in the the middle of the street. And now I'm the only one stand in the middle of the pain. I relized I will always alone after all. I hate myself for being here,  I don't deserve to love some one or someone loves me. I did many cruel things when I was in Phantom Lord Guild. But since I joined Fairy tail, I know what real love is. Everyday, I prayed to God for a miracles will happen, the miracle can stop all the gloomy rainy days.  So I can see the brightness of the sunlight through all the gloomy clouds.  And then one day miracle came,who is Gray, the special guy can stop the rain from pouring. I keep getting fall in love with Gray because of his kindness and a side of coziness. But now I'm confusing, I don't know how I met Gray was a miracle or the biggest mistake in my life. I don't know Gray will be the person is tearing me apart..