I can see my reflection in your eyes

You're my fate or my biggest mistake??

Juvia's pov

Wake up from the horrible night. Pillow is still wet from the tears,  my eyes are red and everything is very blurry. Tried to think last night was just a nightmare, but everything is so real. Tried to avoid it but the only thing I get in return was a stab in my heart. 

Get up from the bed,  it is a depression from the pain but I try to pull myself together. I go to the bathroom. Look at myself in the mirror, should I chang myself to make Gray likes me or just pull off the mask and reveal the real me. I'm lost, I don't know if I make the right decision or  go to the wrong path again.

It's time to go the guild now. I'm so afraid of Erza so I was so rush to get there. The guild is always loud, fun and members treat each other like family. I tried to hold my tears back when I met Gray and Lucy. I have made the decision is ignoring Gray, get away from him.  Nastu and Happy sit at the table, as usual, they are eating a bunch of food, Happy eats a big pile of fish, and Natsu a pile of plates. I can't not see their faces because the piles of fish and plates are so tall. Opposite their table are Gray and Lucy, their expressions  when they are talking are so happy. These feelings are killing me, are hurting me everyday. I calmed myself down a little bit and tried pretend that nothing happen last night, it's time to put my mask on to cover my pain.

" Hey, you're a little bit late than usual, you look so pale, are you okay,Juvia??Lucy said in worried expression. I'm good, don't worry about me, I just didn't get enough sleep last night, maybe because of those liquor, I said. It's not like before now, when I faced Lucy, it is an awkward feeling about her, should I jealous, should I mad at her, the only answer I can think of is I don't know. Lucy treat me like her family when I first came here, I appreciated that a lot. Fairy tail is my family and friends. However, that feeling about Fairy tail is vanishing every single day. 

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