Because Of You {Justin Bieber Fanfic} *ON HOLD*

Chapter 4

^Picture of Justin^

*May 22, 2011*

~Maya's POV~

I've been apart of this 'tour bus life' for all of ten minutes and am so dreading the future four months I'll be trapped on this thing. Justin's constant humming has already taken its toll on me, causing me to already have had to switch rooms three times. Ten minutes. Ten minutes have gone by and I'm already way past done with it.

I feel bad for hating it as much as I do, because I know how many girls would die to be in my position. I know I'm supposed to be the luckiest girl in the world because of my connections with 'Justin Bieber' and I know I'm supposed to take advantage of being so close to him and I know that if I admitted how I really feel about him to the public I would be seen as a brat or stuck up or just plain stupid. I know that. I know all of those things and yet its still so hard for me to appreciate what the world is telling me I'm so lucky to have.

I just want to be home. In my own house and my own town where I'm familiar with things.

I know it's not Justin's fault and that he's not the reason I've been forced to come along, but I can't help but have all my anger and frustration directed toward him.

"You doin' okay over there?"

Lifting my head, I locked eyes with Justin who remained hovered over me.

It only took about two seconds before I took it upon myself to get out of the living room and relocate myself in the back bedroom, which at least was one place I could be by myself.

"Oh so now you're not even gonna talk to me?" Justin's low voice was enough to stop me from going any further; it almost sounded like he was hurt. I whirled my body around in his direction, crossing both arms over my chest.

I kept my voice soft to play along with his. "I never said I wasn't talking to you. All I did was get up."

He took a step closer. "If you were talking to me you wouldn't have gotten up to leave."

I breathed out an exasperated sigh, locking my eyes with his which I didn't realize was a bad idea until it already happened. He had something about him, something he possessed within himself that was able to make me completely shut down at the sight of his golden brown eyes. I didn't want to be thinking like that... having him in my mind in that kind of way didn't set well with myself, nor did it feel anywhere near right. I allowed my eyes to wander away from his, shifting my body uncomfortably in my stance.

"I just... have a lot of homework to do."

"Right, I get it. Its cool. It's not like you have four months to do it or anything," he smirked.

"I like to be caught up," I shrugged. "What do you care anyways?"

"I don't," he defended. "I'm just saying, were gonna be on this bus with each other for the next four months and it's gonna suck if you're always doing 'homework'."

I lifted my lips into a small smile and stuffed my hands into my pockets. "Fine. We'll watch a movie."

He grabbed the remote from the coffee table and tossed it to me just as I sat down on the couch. The T.V. was small but so was the living room. Everything was so condensed and pushed together that I couldn't imagine living here for four months.

I already miss my friends. I miss my town, and everything I'm gonna miss out on while I'm gone. I'm gonna miss the beginning of my senior year. I'll have to show up two months late, and by then I'll have already missed out on so many things I was looking forward to.

This whole thing is just so unfair. It's typical, though. My dad has no time to keep an eye on me, and he doesn't trust me by myself. And instead of taking some time off of work, I'm taking the hit by having to mold to Justin's schedule. I'm just a tag along for his life, not even getting a chance to make something of my own.

The movie was half way over and Justin had been passed out for the past twenty minutes. I was careful to not make any noise as I slid by his chair and into the kitchen.

I reached into the cabinet and felt around until I found a small bottle of Ibuprofen. I popped one in the back of my throat and took a swig of water, washing it down. I had felt a headache coming on and the constant bumps the bus went over was making it worse.

"You okay?"

I turned around and saw Justin sitting up, rubbing at his hair and covering it with his hood.

"Uh, yeah. I just have a headache. I thought you were asleep," I said.

He shrugged, "its hard to sleep on the bus."

"That's good to hear," I rolled my eyes with a small smile and walked back over to the couch.

"Your dad just texted me though, he says we're staying at a hotel in Sacramento tonight. The first show's tomorrow." He rubbed at his eyes and squinted as he looked at his bright phone screen. He looked so innocent. I liked him this way. He was quiet and nice and more himself than he is when he's in the spotlight. He lets it get to his head too much, and I know him too well to believe that he's truly as arrogant as he puts himself out to be.

"Oh, good. I was not looking forward to sleeping on here," I laughed.

"Yeah. Most of tour is fun. Sometimes the bus is fun, but it makes me miss home. If you weren't here I'd be rooming with Kenny again, though. So uh, thanks," he laughed.

I smiled back and sat up.

"Well, I'm gonna go do my homework now. Is that okay with you?" I teased.

"Ah, fine. I'll let you know when we stop."

A/N This is like a half finished draft buuuut dudes, I really have no desire to finish this book and I'm sorry. I know some of you have been asking me for updates and I'm really sorry but I'm just not feeling this book anymore. I started it so long ago, I'm just not really in the same mindset as I was when I came up with the idea. I'm posting this because I want to give this plot up for grabs. A couple of you have been asking me to update and are upset that I've put it on hold, so I'm offering it for one of you guys to finish. Take it, take the previous chapters or just take the idea and make it your own. I'll be deleting it within the next few months. I'm sorry I'm ending this story, but I've been working hard on other projects, one of which is "Let Her Go" my main fanfic at the moment. Check it out if you'd like, but I'm sorry to say I'm gonna be ending this book.

Thanks for sticking with me and I'm sorry, but I hope you guys understand. :)