FROM BACK THEN TO NOW

The Beginning of Something that changed me

After getting no where with my mother I just gave up on asking her things about my dad, Which made me hate him even more because she was holding things from me about him, and I thought that he was suppose to tell but what can you ask a dead person. 

Well as months go my mother had got herself a boyfriend, who I didn't like because he always tried to replace my dad and he always stayed drunk, which made me really hate him because he was very abusive towards me because my brother and sister wasn't going for it, and maybe because I was the young one. My Mother's boyfriend made my life a living hell I feel like and my brother and sister go away with anything that they wanted to and he would always beat me but not them and sometimes I would even did nothing wrong, all I had to do was say the wrong thing and they was going up side my head. 

One day all that changed and he took the abuse to a whole new level for me. On this day I was at home with this man why my so called mother, brother, and sister was at wrk and her boyfriend had cooked something to eat and I didn't eat it and he got mad and me and started to hit me and beat me until it lead to him rapping me and threating me life if I every tell any about it, so I kept my mouth close like I said and I knew if I told my mother she would never believe anything I say because Ik deep down I'm my heart that she wouldn't

So I forgot and let go, it was the easiest thing to do and i went on with my little Mary life because it was that easy I mean I did what I was told right? That made me take a whole new look out on life and that's when i started doing things a lot different with my life. Well as life goes on, he started hitting my mother, and the last time he hit her she left him where he was because i was there when it happened, and i told her i will always be there no matter what and i always stood by my word no matter what people did to me i never gave up on them,  always gave up on myself

Moving on, Well its was me and my sister at home alone now which was crazy because would always leave me at home alone and go out with her niggas or friends but it was cool  because, ik one day it was gonna come back and bit her in the ass and i waited on. She we always do things and would never wanted me to tell on her and i didn't. So one day she had left me at home alone and mama had left her spar key to the car at home, so i went out side and got in it and hit the back of the house, so when mama got home and asked about i told her that pookie did which ik  i was wrong for doing but i was scared and didn't know what she was gonna do to because that's when the rap came back in my head and all the things that happened

So, pookie went to juvie until she got out in 6 months and as those six months went by i would stay with a lady that made me feel like i was her one and only child in the world, I loved  that  lady with all my heart and nobody could take me and her bound away. ( i miss you mama v.)