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Hello whoever reads this, so the teacher I trusted told the office, well that hurts a bit. Anyways I tried to commit suicide yesterday, didn't work, I honestly hope no one I know irl reads this. I ate more yesterday, I feel like a pig because of it but ya know, I have to eat. How I feel about myself still haunts my mind, is it normal for someone this young to feel this way? I sure hope not, there is this guy I like, let's say his name is Joey, he loves sports and I doubt he will ever like me back, my friends try to save me but it doesnt work, although the fact that they try means a lot. Speaking of friends, I'm supposed to spend the night at my friend Neveah's house. I'm again in art class. If I did kill myself I know people would miss me but within a few years I will be forgotten almost completely. I'm a little scared to do it, not because it will hurt or im scared of death but the fact that I didn't get to change the world, and that's my biggest dream. But being alive hurts now, I might as well hold on for as long as I can. I wish I could escape my thoughts, it won't stop, but most people think I'm okay which is good. Another one of my escapes I didn't say yesterday is video games, even though I'm not that good. Well that's it ATM bye. (Sorry for the randomness again)

Destery 3/18/16