Even When I'm Gone

Blessing?

Five years ago..
"Hey Abigail!" I hear Ryan yell out. Oh no.. The torment begins early today. I ignore him and keep walking, that was a pretty bad mistake. "Abigail! Don't you pretend like you don't hear me!" He yells running towards me, he grabs my hand and turns me around quickly. He knocks me off my balance in the process, he sees I am vulnerable so he takes the opportunity to take my shoulders and shove me backwards, throwing me to the ground. I fall hard, tears spring into my eyes. The tears are not of physical pain, but they are because I am alone.. I need my best friend, but he is not here.. I slowly begin to lose my unconsciousness, thinking of my best friend and where he could be..
       Present time..
"Abby? Did I do something wrong?" Daemon asks, snapping me out of my thoughts. Should I tell him that ever since he left I was bullied until I couldn't physically or most definitely emotionally take it? All the years of darkness and depression I went through, the scars that line my arm would be enough to to make him leave again. The words of my bullies run through my head 'You're just a freak Abigail- No wonder you don't have any friends.' No I can't tell him, not right now. Everything is glass right now, I could say one wrong word and everything would shatter. "No you didn't do anything wrong you just scared me is all" I say to him with fake happiness. He looks like he doesn't believe me, so I just grab his hand and walk out the door. We get to my house and I am now faced with the reality of what mom is going to say. "Mom I'm home, uh can you come here?" I call out to her, I hear the creak of her walking down the stairs. I look up in time to see her stop mid step and just stare at Daemon, she looks like I felt when I seen him. Shocked, mortified, and more importantly, happy. She runs to him with open arms, accepting him. "My God Daemon, what happened?" Mom cries out, and Daemon tells her exactly what he told me. Mom instantly said he could stay here, in one of our guest rooms. We set everything up in the room for Daemon, I have school tomorrow so I got to my room to lay down. I hear the door creak open and Daemon walks in sniffling like he has been crying. "What's wrong?" I ask him as he goes to sit on my bed. "I've missed you so much Abby, I've done something bad.. I didn't know if I would ever see you again.." He cries into my shoulder when I sit down beside him. "What did you do darling?" I ask him with caution, he pulls his sleeves up showing me exactly what I had done to myself earlier this morning. But this is a new pain, it is much more then when I do it to myself. Why? Why has he done that? "Why?" I ask cautiously, trying to fight back more tears. "I am alone Abby. I am alone and to far gone." He says to me as he looks at me with almost no emotion in his eyes. I think that's what broke the wall holding back my tears, we were both so broken and I thought I was alone. "You're not alone Daemon. I promise you are not." I look at him slowly raising my sleeves, revealing the soft pink scars and cherry red new. "I did this because I thought I was alone too. I didn't know where you were, if you were coming back or if you were even still alive. I need you, and it looks like you need me. It won't be easy but we can do it." He grabs me in a hug as I finish my words. We both lay in my room and cry until morning.