Jane's nightmare ✔️

Chapter 15

Jane pov...

The last week has been horrible, not only has people at work been watching me at work but I have been having nightmares about Hoyt again, it's either he is still alive and after me, the day I killed him he killed me or my child turns into him.
I have hardly slept and I can't drink coffee so I don't know how I am managing to stay awake.

I show up to work and sit down at my desk and Frankie walks up to me and says "hey Janie"
I say "yea Frankie"
He says "no offence but you look like shit"
I say "thanks little bro"
He laughs and says "anytime"
Korsak calls Frankie over to where he and Frost are but I can't hear what they are saying.

Maura walks up and over to me and shakes her head, she asks "another one?"
I nod and say "every day for the last week, I know that it's not good for Jordan so I have an appointment with a therapist later just to see if it helps"
She nods and says "that's good, remember you can always talk to me"
I nod and say "I know Mau"

Korsak calls out "we got a case"
We all head to the scene and find that the victim is a thirty year old man, Vincent Omana who was beaten to death in his own home.
We finish the work at the scene and canvas the area, talking to neighbors who somehow didn't hear a thing.
We are about to go back to BPD when I look at the time and realise that my appointment is in ten minutes so I tell Maura and she nods, I tell Korsak "I will be back in about a hour"
He nods and asks "where are you going?"
I say "nowhere important"

I head to the therapists office and go in to talk. I go in and we talk about my problems, he helps to talk through the base of my problems as I never got over Hoyt and what he did and I had never fully talked to someone about it. He explains how by keeping it to myself I could never fully get over it. He also tells me that I have PTSD from the times with Hoyt. I get given some medication that I can take to help with sleeping.
We keep talking about my experience and how I am coping with having a baby as I will raise Jordan and they will only have Hoyts DNA and will not be anything like Hoyt. We talk about work and how I can cope with others who keep watching me or saying stuff behind my back.
Our time is up but I know that it's helping so I book in another session for next week. I say "thank you, goodbye" and pick up the medication on the way out and go back to work.
I get back to BPD and go back to my desk and see where we have gotten on the case. The guys have started to collect information on the vic and setting it up on the board. Korsak says "Jane your back just in time, can you get the results from the morgue?"
I nod and say "okay"
I walk down to the morgue and over to Maura, she asks "how did it go?"
I smile and say "good, it was helpful"
She nods and says "I have the autopsy reports here for you"
I say "thanks"
I start walking away and she says "meet you for lunch"
I nod and say "see you there"
Before going back upstairs to the guys.