Take the Hope for a Good Life

Fifteen

LA, USA
June 23rd
Miley's POV

"Happy anniversary." Liam says, waking me up. "C'mon, it's noon we've got to get going if we're gonna make the reservation."

"What reservation? How did I sleep in until noon? We have a three year old." I reply tiredly.

"I dropped him off at Chris'. He's watching him so we can go to lunch. I made reservations around 7:00 this morning while you were sleeping right after I dropped River off. He was more than happy to come to uncle Chris' house for a visit so I took advantage of it. Get ready so we can go." Then he kisses me and I get up and go to the bathroom to take a shower.

When I got done with my shower I got dressed, then grabbed my phone before I got in the car with Liam. By the time we got to the restaurant it was almost 1:00 in the afternoon, which was when our reservation was. Liam walked me inside and we got sat down. A waiter came and I ordered water, so did Liam even though I told him he could have wine. We ordered our food and later it came. We talked, and later we went home.

"Liam when does River come home?" I ask when I sit on the couch after I got comfortable.

"Later, we still have some time." Then he sits down next to me and kisses me, then tries to take off my shirt.

"No, Liam, no. I don't want to do anything like that right now, okay?" I say, then put my shirt back on. "Sorry."

"It's fine, why though?"

"I'm pregnant, I just...I don't know. I don't want you to have sex with me, then I get fat and you wanna do it again and I say no cause I'm fat. I just don't wanna have sex then you not be able to for a long time."

"We can have sex when you're pregnant." He says.

"I know, and I'm probably not even making any sense but I just...I don't know. I'm sorry."

"It's fine, Miles. It really is. I'm fine with it."

"It doesn't really seem like you're fine with it. Liam please, okay. If you want to then we can." Then I kiss him, but he pulls away.

"No, Miley. If you're gonna do it when you don't want to then I don't wanna make you."

"Thank you. I just...I really don't want to. I'm sorry, I-"

"Shh, it's fine. Trust me, I'm fine with it." He says, then he kisses me.

"Okay. So, what now?" Then he sighs.

"Well, to be honest? I have no clue. I mean, we're always watching River or doing something with him...I think we're just bored and miss the little guy. I know I do anyway. You?"

"Yeah...I think we don't know what to do with ourselves when River is gone. It's okay though, he'll be back later."

"Or...or we could pick him up now." Liam replies.

"Whatever you want." Then I smile.

"I want my baby back." Then he laughs.

"Okay, I'll go pick him up. You can stay here and rest."

"I can go pick him up, I-"

"Don't argue with me, you're staying here and resting."

"Why?" I whine.

"Because, I want you rested so you can say hi to River. I don't want you to be tired, I can already tell you are. You're so tired, Miley."

"No I'm-" then I yawn. "Not."

"Bullshit, lie down I'll be back soon." Then I stick my tongue out at him, lie down on the couch, amd close my eyes.

When I woke up River was jumping by the couch.

"Mommy mommy wake up! I'm home! Mommy!" Then he shakes me and I grab him and shake him back.

"No, River don't shake me." I say sternly. "Don't shake me." Then he looks at me upset.

"I'm sorry." Then he starts to cry, and I look at him sympathetically.

"River..." Then he runs to his room, and I tear up. "I'm the worst mom ever." I say to Liam.

"No you're not." Then I sit up on the couch.

"I grabbed and shook my own son."

"You were sleeping, you had a rude awakening. And don't forget you're pregnant and you do have mood swings."

"That should be no excuse. I'm horrible. I'm a horrible mom." I say crying.

"No you're not. Just go to River and apologize. I'll make him apologize for shaking you."

"Fine."

"River, please come out here." Liam says, calling River. Then River comes out of his room slowly and cautiously. "River, apologize for shaking mommy."

"I'm sorry mommy." Then I hug him.

"It's okay, and I'm sorry too. I shouldn't have done that." Then he smiles.

"It's okay! I still love you." Then I laugh.

"Good, now what did you wanna do for the rest of the day? It's 4:00." I reply.

"Can we go to park?" River asks.

"Up to daddy." I say, then he looks at Liam.

"It's okay with me." Liam says, then River gets excited and starts jumping around.

"Let's go." I say, then we get ready and leave the house.

When we got to the park, Liam and I watched River play and then Liam got up and went to River. He picked River up and put him on a swing, then started to push him. I was so happy watching River and Liam. They really are amazing, and I couldn't wait for the new baby to come along.