The Way I See It

Through My Eyes

I am told to stay away.

That he is a liar.

And that heartbreak, my soul will pay.

Why is it that he is so bad?

Not just for me, but for everyone.

It just makes me so mad!

Because, he seems so good,

So extremely amazing.

And yet, he could

Break your heart in a second,

And lose his mind in a minute.

Like balancing on the edge of his cliff,

About to plunge.

Every second he stays there, the chances of him falling to his death increase.

Unstable

Anxious

Depressed

And confused.

...And deadly.

      They tell me to stay away,

That he is bad news.

So I must ask myself,

What have i to lose?

And then I realize I must choose.

Him,

Or my clean record.

Is it wrong to have hope?

For someone who never comes back?

For someone who breaks hearts?

And lacks,

The loyalty required to sustain a healthy relationship?

Is it wrong to believe in someone, who lies right to your face,

Who hurts people,

And doesn't stay in his place?

Tell me,

What am I to do?

"All I ever wanted was you."

I fell for you not because of everything that was good,

But for the things that were "bad"z

I fell for your house; how it reminded me of my own.

How you had the urge to occasionally smile,

Even when I would frown.

I fell because you let me,

You didn't bother to say

That you weren't free.

I fell for your broken family.

The one where your mom was out of a job

And your dad was in jail.

And your cousin smoked hookah,

And the hose sat atop the dresser.

The one where you would yell at them, pegging a ball at each other, blasting their music; I truly didn't mind,

While we were desperately trying to sleep.

I fell in love with your mess,

The one that you were ashamed of,

The one that tore you.

While you may find it depressing,

I find it breathtaking

That someone so...

Optimistic

Could live in such a place.

When I realized...

You were only faking.

So what was it going to be?

My safety,

Or my sanity?

For you, my dear.