All of My Firsts

Letters

January 5, 2014

James,

You've only been gone for three weeks and I've thought I was going to die just about six times. I wasn't thinking about killing myself, it wasn't anything like that (don't worry), I just assumed without you my body couldn't carry on. I guess you could say I am suffering from James withdrawal, and I don't know how I'm going to survive without you. Everybody else says hi, even Murray. Whenever I take him on a walk, he gets excited when we walk past your old house.

I hope you understand how much I miss you.

I was trying to be silly and keep it light in the first paragraph, but it just seemed very fake of me, and I knew you would see right through it. I have just been really sad lately, and I miss you so much I spend most of my time moping around, wishing you were here, or both at the same time. Ugh, I don't want to be a burden to you, though, and I certainly don't want to depress you with my sad love letters.

Okay, I have to stop writing before I ruin your day with my sadness.

Love,

Haley

P.S. Come home soon! I don't know how much longer I can go before I can see you!

January 7, 2014

Haley,

I believe you when you say how much you miss me, 'cause I feel the same way. I've made some new friends here, but they're not as cool as you and Casey and Big. They don't even know what fry sauce is; it's such a shame. I also want you to promise me that you won't talk about dying with me anymore. Whenever you do, I always get scared and start thinking about a life without you, and that would be comparable to hell on earth..

Take care of yourself, I want you to promise me that.

Love,

James

P.S. I'm trying to convince my parents to let me come see you for your birthday, so keep your fingers crossed!