Come Home

Come Home

        A feeling that eats your heart whole.

Do you know what this feels like?

To have your soul torn apart from you with no care nor sorrow.

To have an ocean of sadness in your eyes making it hard to see.

To have a bubble of stress in your head throbing harder each time to the point were you feel like its going to explode.

When you fall asleep not becaus your tired or of a sweet lullaby but because your body cant handle all the emotions rushing threw in and out of you, with a knot in your throat and sweat beading down your forhead and gasping for air.

Dreaming not of a princess with her prince charming coming to rescue her from the fierce dragon and once victory has come the kiss of true love,NO, you dream of falling, falling deeper in a black whole of nothing good, only desperation, exile, pain and so much more worse but the farther you go the less air you have and you have nothing to hold on to, to pull yourself up.

Your falling farther away from HOPE. The word hope sounds nice to say.

Makes you feel like something good is going to happen, when you dream for something and just maybe, just maybe itll come true.

Thats what hope is, my medicine it helps me stay alive but do i decide to make an effort to reach out and take what is vital for my heart to keep beating?

          Come home, i pleade all day all night. I just want you to be my friend.

To come home and hold me. Are you listening to me? Is anyone out there hearing.

Wrap me up in your tender arms because if not i know ill fall.

I may not be small but im needy, just breath me, breath me in now or you might leave.

If you leave i dont know if ill servive.

This world isnt half as bad as people may thinnk, i just know if every son and daught heard the moans of those who are less fortunate then us i know this world will begin to revolve.

With out you im lost, lost and im no were to be found. Its probably because every step you take away i break more and more.

I dont want i NEED you to be strong. Please come home.

          Im on my knees begging you to stay.

If its of any cosolation ill hold you. Ill breath you in.

Ill have you kept safe, in my arms not in my heart because the day i do, you wont be here.

Ive hurt myself once again, because i need you but the worst part of it all theres no one to blame.

Ill warm you up, if you come home.

My heart will never be whole with out you.

Your like the good to the evil, the strong for the weak, the brave for the scared.

The hand to lift me up when i fall.

The words that make me float with grace every time i follow each letter.

Your smiles are my sunshine and your memory is the light in my dark.

          Will you, please?

Hold on a little longer everything is going to be alright.

I remember promising you id be there for always.

I am pleading you to forgive me. Im only human, not a perfect creature.

I wasnt as gifted as you. With such delite god made you.

So wise beyond your years, but living only a few.

As a caterpiller you took me in, and created what, a butterfly?

No a dragon, thank you!.....

              I tremble knowing your gone.

When your name slips my trembling lips i choke back my tears and choke on your grace.

Suddenly my arms are gasping for your warmth.

My ears in pain because your words used to flow like a soft river threw them and now there hollow.

Your love was like a wave of sunshine that covered my heart and made it warm.

Now im cold lost in my own world. Screaming for you but no one seems to hear.

I cry in agony every night missing the light i used to have when it was dark.

Now its just blank, no light no joy nothing.

Why?

Well, because your gone.

I pleade, beg, whisper, sigh, scream, yell, i do the unimaginables for you to come back one last time to tell you; the world dosnt turn, my heart dosnt beat, my hands dont move, my eyes cant see, my mouth cant speak, my legs are stiff, my head wont think , with out you.

Come home, is it so much to ask for.

I clench my jaw and tight my grip to hold back from tearing myself apart from the pain of being with out you.

Why,because ive just realized you werent perfect either.

You coudnt help it, the demoins in this world ate you inside out.

Seeping in your blood and filling you with poison and you coudnt stop, nor could i.

I wont ever forgive myself for not finding your cure, but i hope you will remeber all the time I helped YOU up.

All the times I did tryed my BEST.

I also deeply HOPE you forgive me.

                       If theres anything to remeber about you its that you taut me to always keep hope close to my heart.

Theres time were i think about letting it go and let it find anything thats actually important, not me, because with out you here, i guess im no one.

Those are the times when i fight the demions who took you from me i tear them apart from me because i promised id keep HOPE clos to my heart.

Those are the times were i hold it in my arms and imagine you there.

I squeeze so tight its exficiating but i dont care because the gift of you being in my arms is only a dream.

Thats what helps me, seeing you in my dreams and holding your possesion close to me.

I cry with you now and in the dark i see a dim light and i know its hope the one thing you gave me.

I promise till the day you come home Ill carry it in my soul.

Hope is my medicine and ive exccepted it in me.

I hope that if you were still here you'd be proud of my, because i wear your name on my sleve and the hope you gave me in my soul.

As of my everything else well, its healing little by little but nothing will ever be the same without you.

Im braver then i use to be thanks to you.

Just listen to what i have to say before i continue my journey, I love you and your with me in my heart and ill be waiting for you when you decide that your ready, to come home.

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