Confessions of a Grunge Goddess

Chapter 1

{Essence's POV}

BEEP! BEEP!

[Ughhh!I am really not for school right now. I can not deal with it today. But if i stay here i will end up going craz-......crazier.

Sup im Essence but you can call me Essi. Im 17 years old and counting the days up until i turn eighteen so i can escape from this priso-... i mean leave home. I am what some people would call 'grunge', and i have no problem with that. But when you go to a school like mine then you could see the obstacles that i have to go through.

1.) I only have one friend ( two if you count my grandpa)

2.)I am bullied

3.)Guys think i am are weird

4.) and last but not least adults think im some rebel without a cause.

But honestly im not. I respect all of my elders, get great grades, and i pay for my own clothes ad things like that because i have a job. I plan to go to college and major in something like fashion.

Hahaha fashion

As if any one would actually wear anything i designed. Slut... i mean Celeste Cormac would definitely agree with that. She is the Biggest b*tch in the whole school. But no one thinks that but me and Catalana , or 'Cat eyes' as i call her.

Anywho enough of my life for right now im gonna go get dressed.] 

{A/N: anything inside of the [] is background information}

I walked sluggishly to my closet. 

I picked an outfit that i loved(on the side), but knew that Mrs. I'M GOD *clears throat mentally* i mean Celeste and everyone else would hate also.

I have know idea why she hates me but one day i will B*tch slap the answer out of her. She and i were best friends until she got 'pretty' in the 7th grade. So now we are enemies.

*walks into bathroom and gets into shower*

Now i know that im in the 12th grade, and it happened almost six years ago but it still hurts extremly bad.

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It was the first day of school and we were on the bus.

"you ready for yet another year of Torture" 

i said referring to the many years of bullying both i and Celeste had been suffering through. She looked at me with a face that read 'are you kidding me'. I chuckled at her actions and she soon followed me into deep laughter. That abruptly ended when we heard a very rude comment made by a Eighth grade boy 'shut up you ugly 

a*s b*tches im not in the mood right now' i looked over at Celeste who looked very sad. Celeste could take.ever mean comment.that was thrown at her , but if you call her ugly it really messes with her. We both ate cutters and her cutting was caused by her crush in 6 grade last year.calling her and ugly b*tch when she expressed her feeling to him.

"Its ok Selle he is lying you are beautiful." She weakly chuckled and smiled at the nickname i had given her in the first grade. I had mispronounced her name and it just suck ; her family even called her b the sill name now.

I was to lost un my thoughts to notice that one of thee other eighth grade boys had now moved from behind us to beside us. It wasn't just any 8th grade it was the Star football player and MVP on the varsity boys basketball team light skinned green eyed Sec god. His name was Derek Williams and he was talking to ME!

" Hey you know he is lying right, because i think your very sexy"he said. it seemed like the whole bus got quiet.

"Really!" i answered a little to excited.

"Oh not you i meant you friend other by the window." as soon as those words left his mouth the bus erupted into laughter.

my face got hot and i could feel tears coming done my red cheeks

i looked over at Selly as she stared at Dick... i mean Derek. She seemed not to care about what he had said to me. Derek interrupted everyone's laughter to ask the very questions that ruined our friendship.  

"Why do you hang out with her? Do you feel sorry for her?

I looked at Selle waiting for her to sand up for me. That didn't happen though.

"Umm would you like me more if i didn't hang out with her?" my eyes doubled in size as she spoke those words "What!?!" i yelled towards her.

"Come on and hang with the crew.and i. Your to pretty to hang with her." With almost no hesitation she got up and went to the back of the bus with the populars. She looked back at me while mouthing 'im sorry'. Those were the last nice words she every spoke to me.

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I got out of the shower got dressed and all that good stuff. I still can't believe she did that to me. Now i have to go face her after cryin over our past in the shower.

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ok let me just say im sorry for the long boringness (I know its not a word, lol) of this chapter bit just give it a chance you'll like it ;-)and I dedicated this to one of the best writers EVER, lol.

Love life  

Dig dip 

Have hope 

and DRIVE JEEPS o_O