Accidents ≫ l.t au (on hold)

eight

>beverly<
revenge was all i could think of the day karl said he liked gaile, not me.

in my point, i thought it was the only answer. that's what i've become now, i made myself a monster. i started to drink and do drugs, i started to hook up when i used to be a stick-to-one girl, i started doing surgery on my body parts, i started putting more makeup, thinking it'll make me prettier, i did all of this because i was jealous. gaile always get the boys, that's why i did that, gaile has this perfect attitude, body and all those stuff. right now, i realize that i'll never equal to her because i'm a monster.

i thought doing all these stuff are the answer, but it only made things worse.

"the world we live in is cruel enough and you decided to add up to it's cruelty"

when gaile spoke those words, it hit me. realization did hit me. gaile warned me, she's had enough and she's my only family. gaile is adopted by my family. gaile was my parents' favorite, she was the straight-a student who follow the rules, while i'm the quiet girl who breaks it. i was jealous and i couldn't handle being compared to anyone. i killed my parents, i was in jury for how many years.

there, i said it, i killed my parents the day they were scolding me because of slapping gaile and pulling her hair. i just randomly got a knife and let the anger control me. i stabbed them. gaile was the only person who forgave me. i'm crazy and i want to be normal again.

that's final, i'm going to another country for help.

good cuz u need major help
-rae♥︎