dear dad,
every thing about you annoys me. your voice, your tone, your demeanor, your selfishness and incapability to understand me. you are ruthless and your ego is overpowering when really you are nothing. the only things i give you credit for are creating me out of lust/love, and teaching me how to hate myself. you have never built me up, helped me be strong, you have never been proud or boastful about me. for years are relationship has only gotten worse. it has spiraled down to where we barely even speak though we live in the same house and sit at the same dinner table. you never taught me how a girl should be loved or treated. so i often blame you when i go after the assholes for boyfriends. i blame you when i put up with their shit. i refuse to repeat those three words when you meaninglessly toss them out to me as i walk out the door. i cannot stand to look at you after the way you have talked and yelled at me countless times, the times you have wrestled me without winning not even once. i am strong. and i did it without you, "dad". i fought my own battles, protected my own self, wrapped my arms around my own body when all i could do was shake and cry. your words make me shake and shiver and bow my head in submission. you nag me on, and keep yelling as you know that makes me angry. you want me to fight back, so you can say more. but i wont, i refuse. i sit until you are finished insulting your only child, as you, without fail, end up nodding or walking away with a nasty evil grin on your face. as a sign of victory. that you have made me feel like the dirt under your feet once again.
love,
your only child.
