I arrive at the mall and head for 'Strada', the restaurant I'm suppose to meet her at. I see it and head inside
I almost immediately spot her.
She immediately spots me.
She gets up and walks over to me.
Well this is gonna be awkward.
She gives me a massive hug that I fail to return. Then she starts kissing me all over my cheeks and saying
"Awww bean, I've missed you baby"
I rest my bag down and we are handed the menus. I hold my menu up as to pretend I'm reading it, anything to avoid a conversation. But knowing what she's like, that's gonna be hard.
"Well speak to me, I haven't seen you in eight months how's married life"
She says sweeping the short blonde hair from her eyes.
"Wellll" I say exaggerating the l's
Knowing that she's PISSED about me not inviting her to the wedding.
"It's great, I love him" I say taking my shades off and getting a good look at her.
She looks healthy.
The waiter comes back to take our order and then goes again. We're silent until the good comes.
And then she asks me the question she asks me every anniversary. The one I always avoid.
"How do you feel about today, are u ok ?" She says putting a fork full of noodles in her mouth.
I think intensively before answering.
This woman who I love has yet once abandoned me for the third time and gone to rehab.
THE THIRD TIME.
No . I wasn't gonna let her off easily by avoiding it this time.
"he felt he didn't want to be here, and everyone would be happier without him. In reality,if he had lived, I would have had a dad. And that would have been an incredible experience. The death of a young musician or my dad in this case, isn't something to romanticise, and you did that. You also chose drugs over me and that why I think I'll never forgive you."
I put my glasses on and pick my bag up.
"Bean, no please" I hear her say as I head for the door.
I leave and get in my car
