OPPOSITE TURN

Intro

How would you know when to stop showing your love to someone to let them be free or just keep trying until she feels the same way  you do? How would you know if you’re gonna say how you feel or not? It is so complicated. How would you even know that you are in love and the love is reciprocated? These questions always pop in my mind at times when I see couples.

I am Katie. Oh by the way, I live in Baguio City. The city of pines they say but will soon be the city of garbage -_-.  I haven’t experienced love yet. I am not bitter. I have friends to fill the spaces love is supposed to be occupying. I am the one with zero love life among my friends. All of them have crushes, M.Us (mutual understanding), boyfriends/girlfriends. For me, none at all. They say, I have a stone heart. Pusong bato kumbaga, but no, I also have emotions. I just don’t show them. I usually show poker faces and smiles. . I love reading books and stories from wattpad. I call it my love. xD . I love TOP!!!!! .  I am the quiet one in our group, but I can be loud at times too when I feel so happy. I am also the youngest of our barkada. I am there when my friends experienced the goodness and harshness of love. There was one summer when all of my barkada got love problems. I was the only one who is just lazing around having no care in the world. I don’t put my nose on their business because they do not want me to. After all, I have the stone heart. They insist that I have a crush which is none actually. I just think it is just admiration for a deed someone do or one’s assets. They just pair me with different people.  They assume on things. They do not even believe what they are assuming.

There was one time; I was paired to a TREE?! I love looking at trees. I love how tall they grow. How they sway in the wind. I admire their use. So just because every time I get bored I look at trees and think things, they assumed it’s my crush. So unbelievable.  This just show how they are desperate to find me a love life. So to satisfy them, I rode with the idea. I hug trees and doodle trees in my notebook. They got tired and assumed another one. They teased me that the tree who is my quote and quote crush is one of our barkada who is tall, dark and…………….. has curly hair. At first I did not get what they are talking about. How could be a person be a tree?  After one week, it occurred to me that because his hair is curly, it means that it is the leaves of a tree. He is tall and has dark complexion -_-. Because of that, Binatukan nila ako!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes I long for love too. I want to experience what other girls are experiencing. I want to experience the things a leading character in a love story experience. Once, I was walking down Session Road and there were people who were holding letters which formed the words: Three words eight letters say it and I’m yours. It is for a girl. It was so sweet. I want to experience it too. One time, I even became a chaperone for two couples. My friend was supposed to come so I will not be left out but she ditched me. They were so sweet and I, was left with the trees found in burnham park. It was so lonely to not have a partner when all you see are couples walking hand in hand, sitting and all other stuff lovers do.