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Fuck my damn life I have to go over to Stevens
~End of School ~
I left school pretty fast I mean it's 3 min away from my house
I didn't care about going over to Stevens house I only cared if he was going to bully me or do something to me so I was basically nervous as fuck
I got a text from a unknown number
Unknown - do u need my address
Me- Steven ?
Unknown - no it's your mom duh it's Steven
Me- oh well yeah what is it

I then realized Stevens lives a house away from me that's just great like what better then my bully living 30 seconds away from me like wtf
I arrived at Stevens
I rung the door bell and he opened it
"Hey " i said and smiled
"What up dweeb " he said
"Come in " he pointed to the couch
"So what were u planning to do for this gay shit" he asked
"Well I don't really know I'm not that smart ya know " I said
"I knew u were some dumb bitch "
"Thanks Steven I mean like what the fuck did I even Do to you all you do is treat me horrible for no damn reason you honestly don't get
it don't you" I yelled at him wtf did I just say im screwed he's probably going to kill me
"I'm sorry " he said
"IM SORRY THATS IT STEVEN I HAVE CUT MYSELF SO MANY TIMES I HAVE TRIED TO COMMIT SUICIDE SO MANY TIMES BECAUSE OF YOU AND ALL I GET IS A SORRY "
"Mya .... I'm I'm sorry I didn't know it affected you that much "
"well it did Steven " I stared to tear up
And as soon as you know it I broke down in tears
"Don't cry baby don't waste your tears on me you don't know how sorry I am mya I'm sorry u don't have to forgive me but im sorry "
"Bye Steven " I said and ran out the door
But he grabbed my wrist when I was about to open the door
"Mya your Amazing and beautiful and I didn't mean anything I said Ok "
He leaned in and kissed me
(ZERO TO A HUNDRED NINJA real QUICK REAL QUICK WHOLE SQUAD ON THAT REAL SHIT)
"Steven I I I can't " I said then left

I got home at around 6:00 pm
I wanted to die I got things ready for school and did my home work then I went to sleep..,,
Thinking about Steven

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