confused ; sfe

five

and for the second time cuddling with my bully I felt different but like a good different
~Morning~
me and Steven woke up at 3:00 pm
"Oh shit" I said softly so Steven would'nt wake up but he did lmao
I covered my face because I looked ugly in the mornings like hellla hella ugly
"why are u covering ur face princess "
"Because I look ugly " I said while keeping my hands on my face
"OMF NO DONT SAY DAT GIRL" Steven said while taking my hands of my face
"u- look - beautiful "he said in between kisses
"No - I - don't " I mimicked him
"welll mr.fernandez what do u want to do"
"idk princess its all up to u "

me and steven were not really digging breakfast this "morning" so we decided to stay in bed watching netflix basically all day
i felt weird to be fucking honest i feel like stevens going to hurt me i dont like this feeling at all
9;00
steven randomly blurts out that hes hungry
i am too so we decided to go to in n out
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"what do ya want boo"
"ill get a burger with grilled onions and animal style fries please"
i said handing him 20$ "oh no no no no babe you are not paying " steven said
"BAHA i am who u think u are telling me wha to do nigga back up" i said with attitude
"damn " steven mumbled
we sat down and waited for our food "number 86 "
"thats us !" i said excitedly
"ill go get it babe" steven said
we ate in peace and quiet it was a good quiet not awkward not embarrassing just perfect i finally broke the silence and said " steven i love you "
"wh a wha a t t " steven said stuttering "i gotta go ill see you soon good bye "
i wanted to cry what was that for i walked home and sat there blankly do i really love steven or am i just in love with the feeling of being or having the attention its weird. It was a friday finally ! me and steven skipped school that day
-saturday
nothing much was did today i basically cried the whole day wondering when someone would love me
-sunday
i did the same thing as saturday i didnt want to go to school on monday i hated it im just done with life
- monday
SCHOOL YAY!!!
sike bitch
i woke up hopped in the shower threw on my black ripped high wasted shorts with a black and white striped crop top
and my black and white converse
i walked into school confidently "mya u could get through this day!" i mumbled to myself
"what up fag" weasel said
"what up " i said back at him he is no way on earth talking to me like that its finally time for me to man the fuck up excuse me woman the fuck up and stand up for myself
"ooooo shes talking back what else you got "
"ooo look weasel what the fuck did i ever do to you u dumb nigga go pick on a  nother bitch see what they say now i gotta go dont needa waste my time on a mistake " i said confidently
i heard ooos and ahhhhs but i didnt care i just kept on walking to my class.
It was the end of school and i was walking to my house when i heard someone yelling
"WAIT UP!"
"HOLD UP!"
it was steven.
i groaned "what" i said blankly
"what the fuck whats up you "
"considering the fact that you left me at in n out at 10 o clock at night i honestly dont know whats up with me now if you excuse me let me go to my home now"
"well i just wanted to tell you that i love you too but ig ur just not in the mood "
"Hahaha do u really love me or are u just telling me this cos you feel bad go ahead tell me that you love me even if its fake cos at school it doesnt really seem that u - u- u love me " i said crying
i quickly ran off
fuck you steven fernandez