The two of us were always together... We were like a single identity... A unique being, and that closeness was very important to us...however we knew we were separate beings... The one that was not me was Lauralee and the one that was not Lauralee was me... For us this concept was something that was..."Those two sisters Kiersten and Lauralee probably don't care about anyone other than themselves...But my parents want me to try and be friends with them..." That was not exactly true...there was one person we really care about... Our grandparents who took care of us... We adored them... But that was a very long time ago... "So Kiersten has the purple jacket and Lauralee has the pink right?". "No you couldn't be more wrong...Lauralee is purple Kiersten is pink...you always get it wrong!". "Sorry you two just look so alike!". "No we don't your just dumb". We really liked our grandparents, they were different... They didn't try to win us over like anyone else did... All we wanted was from them to see that we weren't alike in anyway... We really liked our grandparents... They on,y people we ever cared about dropped that bomb on us...and never understood us again... And after that we became more defensive and more worried about who we talk to...and from then, we built a barrier around us to keep everyone away from us...and we tried to escape the fact everyone would talk about us... But some kids would come around and try to befriend us... Kiley, Aidan, Chelsea, Hanna, Geneva, Grace... I was never as famous as my sister...because after she started school...she broke our barrier, she would only hang out with her friends and never with me... So I built a barrier to protect myself from the world, just because who my family are everyone tried to befriend me or embarrass me and I couldn't keep the barrier up any longer... I was braking most people kept coming and trying to befriend me... And so I became more defensive and I try to keep people away... People started to move more away from me so I just hang out alone after school and I would stay in my room trying to figure out why, why people try to connect to me and try to get closer and brake into my bubble...and my barrier started to brake and I couldn't hold it up anymore.
I made a small group of friends but year after year...they started to drift away from me, and I was left out of everything and I couldn't relate if they wouldn't tell me...so I tried to be more quiet and not talk to them but no matter what...they tried to talk to me...and I couldn't do anything about it...but my barrier is slowly coming back and I will stop talking to everyone.
My sister and I have our barrier back... And I couldn't be more happy!
