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Namjae's POV:

It's been two days since I've spoken to Yoongi and I really regret not opening up there and then.

The members have been asking if I'm okay but I just ignore them and pretend to not hear them, I love them so much but I'm not in the mood to talk lately.

I've been laying on my bed not really talking and replaying the incident in my head over and over.

Flashback:
"Namjae, I like you." He says seriously with his forehead pressed against mine.

I was in shock to be honest.

My heart was pounding and my head was going over all possibilities trying to make sure he was telling the truth.

"I understand if you don't return the feelings but please tell me now." He rushed panic taking over his voice.

I tried and tried to get those four little words out but I couldn't manage it, I was too shocked.

Instead I pulled back slightly and tried with all my might to say them back but it was like the chord was cut between my brain and my mouth and I just couldn't get the words out.

I looked to Yoongi and found his eyes full of hurt and panic staring back at me, dread taking over his face.

"I understand." He said quietly and walked out of the room sulkily.

I like you too Yoongi.

End of flashback:

I miss talking to him as weird as that may sound.

I decided to call Halla and ask for advice.

"Annyeong?" She asks from the other side.

"Annyeonghaseyo Halla." I say sulkily.

"What's wrong unnie? And don't say nothing because I can hear it in your voice." She asks seriously.

Damn, she knows me so well.

"Halla I need your advice." I say quietly.

"Ne?"

"I fucked up Halla." I say loudly on the verge of tears.

"Omo Namjae tell me what happened!" She rushes sounding panicked.

"Halla please come back to the dorm I need to talk to someone right now." I rush standing up from my bed.

"I'm with Hoseok oppa, is it okay if he comes too?" She asks.

"Ne of course but he can't tell Yoongi he's coming over." I say

"Okay Namjae, see you soon, annyeong!" She says before hanging up.

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A knock sounds on the door and I get up to answer before immediately being drowned in a bear hug from two people at the same time.

"NAMJAE!!" They both shout dragging out the 'ae' sound.

"Annyeong Halla, Hoseok." I say quietly smiling. "Do you two want a drink?"

"Anyo." Hoseok says smiling down at me.

"Ani, now tell us what happened!" Halla exclaims dragging me down to the sofa.

I explain the situation before leaning into the sofa and sighing while Halla and Hobi think.

"Mianhae if I sound rude but I think you're overreacting." Hobi says calmly.

"I have to agree, Namjae I think if you just told him how you feel he will accept you quickly." Halla says seriously.

"Ne I know but I'm just scared he won't like me anymore." I reply quietly.

"Okay Namjae don't mention this to anyone okay but he's been worse than you these past two days. All I've heard is sad songs coming from his room and he hasn't even spoken to Jin, and he's his roommate." Hobi says warmly.

Seriously?
He cares that much about me?

"Okay I promise you two this now, I will approach him tomorrow and tell him how I feel." I say confidently sitting up straighter after hearing his words.

No matter how much Yoongi annoys me I miss him.

I miss talking to him mostly.

I miss his sarcastic comments and his blunt replies.

I miss his beautiful smile when he laughs.

I miss him...

A/N:
Sorry this update is late but I had writers block again hehe.

This chapter is kind of emotional but I liked it weirdly although I do kinda wanna change it.

Also thank you so much for 200+ reads it means sooo much to me!!

Anyway I hope you're having a good day!
Saranghae, hwaiting!