The Girlfriend Game

Chapter 5

The date I had with Justin is definitely the best. I admit that even though it didn't last as long as I had expected it to be, I felt butterflies in my stomach. Who wouldn't, right? The movie date and water balloon fight didn't bore me. But the very special parts were when he sang in front of me and he let me kiss him when he took me home. I just have to wait for him patiently.

It's been long since the day I went on a date with Justin. School has started, which means more distraction from Justin. Also, I've received thirty thousand from Scooter, as payment for dating Justin. I haven't spent the money, and I feel like a total prostitute, but I'm doing this for my old folks.

I know his tour in America has ended a long time ago, and he told me that as soon as he finished his Atlanta concert he'd come back for me. I've been waiting for a long time and he still hasn't come. I've also tried contacting him, no responses. Until now, I'm still patiently waiting. I understand he needs time.

Right now, I'm shopping with Dane at Walmart. I have the day off and I didn't want to spend it being a couch potato.

"You seem troubled," Dane starts.

"Nah, this is nothing," I answer.

"Is there something wrong?"

"No, don't mind me."

I told Dane everything Justin and I did as soon as we saw each other after our date. He doesn't like Justin, but as my best friend, he listened.

"It's going to be alright. He'll come back for you, I promise. Sometimes guys just really want to go out and be wild," he says.

I know that for sure. I've seen his pictures with Chaz, Ryan, and Za. Also the pictures he took with Caitlin and Christian when they were in Atlanta. Maybe he's forgotten about me. It's okay, I don't want him to get hurt anyways.

"I know you know how much I love Justin even before he knew of my existence, so it's going to be hard for me to feel well. This is something like Post Concert Depression except I wasn't at his concert, I was on a date."

"Calm down. Who knows if he's already waiting for you while you're here grocery shopping? Anyway, let's just hurry up so we can leave soon."

"We don't need to rush, he's probably in Miami or somewhere else. Just walk and talk," I say.

We walk the aisles of Walmart, and while doing so, I see someone in a morph suit. That's Walmart for you. When we're all done, we get the items checked out and head home.

Sitting in the living room watching Supernatural, Dane sits next to me and pats my shoulder. "I know he's coming back for you," he says.

"Not this again. I do miss him, but I understand that he wants to have fun and I've realized that he'll be back on tour soon. I think he's going to Singapore first. Dane, I can never get my hopes up when it comes to meeting a celebrity once again. And besides, school has started anyway," I say.

"It's like you don't really like Justin. You sit here watching your show instead of finding a way to contact him."

"You don't even like Justin. Dane, I've called him numerous times, but he never answered. You wouldn't understand. I've been waiting for him for so long and it's going to drive me insane. And this is Supernatural, I can never miss this."

I feel like crying, I don't like the feeling of waiting for someone for so long. I love Justin so much and my situation isn't helping. I'm stuck between loving him with all myself and heartlessly hurting him. The thought of this has hurt me, and I decide to just go upstairs and rethink life.

All alone in my room, I lie on my side in my bed, thinking of ways to get Justin to date me more and ask me to be his girlfriend as soon as possible. I can just picture it; he and I making plans and going on dates, having the best memories. We'll be having our ups and downs, but in the end I still win. I will leave him and he will feel bad about himself. He'll blame himself and cry himself to death. All these will happen, unless I do my own actions.