If Loving You Is Wrong

Chapter 1

Janae' POV

"No daddy I don't want to play this game it's not fun."
"Shh! Baby girl I won't hurt you." My daddy told me as he put his hand under my dress mommy got me for Easter...
I woke up to the sound of my alarm going off for school. I hate having that dream it's a reminder about what my low life "father" David did to me. I was six years old when he first started raping me. This was going on for ten years. At first he just use to finger me but after my mother died it got worse. He started drinking and beating me every time I didn't want to have sex with him.
I bet you guys are wondering why I said it was a reminder of what he did to me, well I don't live with David anymore. I live with my aunt witch is his sister.....
"Lil hoe get yo ass up and go to school." My aunt Tam yelled at me while she pour ice cold water on me.
"Ugh! I was already up." I said as I looked at her.
"Janae' I won't tell you to get up again. If you don't to school they will stop your check and I need that money." She yelled at me

My name is Janae' Black and I'm 17 years old. I'm 5'2 light skin with curly black hair. I'm mixed with black and white. Y'all know lil boosie song when he be like "mommy white daddy black so that ass super fat" well he ain't never lied because I do have a big butt buying can't tell because I have to wear big clothes that's all my aunt buy for me. I'm very shy and I don't like to party at all.
I moved with my aunt after my granny found out what my daddy was doing to me. My granny name is Mae she wanted me to live with her but my aunt begged her to let me stay with her and her daughter Brittany. Tam only wanted me to live with her for my check I was getting since my mother died. She takes all my money and spend it on her and Brittany. Brittany has a two years old daughter by her on and off again boyfriend Jake. Her daughter name is Shy and she is so cute but Brittany have her dressed so bad and have her looking dirty while she stay dressed looking good. What kind of mother is that?

Once I made it to school my best friend Jane came running to me and have me a hug.
"Hey Yaya." I told Jane, Yaya is her nickname
"Sup Nae you know today Friday right?"
Before I could reply she kept going.
"Mark having a party at his house." She told me referring to her 22 year old boyfriend.
"You should come with me."
"I don't think that's a good idea beca..." She cut me off before I could finish and asked me why.
"Because we are only 16 he a grown ass man that why." With that said I walked to class. It was the ending of my Junior year and I was making all A's like always. I gotta make good grades if I wanna get out of Houston. School went by so fast it was now lunch and Yaya kept begging me to go to the party until I told her yes I'll go with her.
"Fine I'll go but if I don't like it I will leave."
"Yes!" She screamed "You can sleep by my house tonight if you want." I just nodded my head yes as the bell went off letting up know to go to our last class. Jane and I had the same class together it was Art class. When we got to class our teacher told us we had a free day. I turned to Yaya and told her I was going home first to get some clothes.
"Ok but you know I can get you some clothes to wear to the party if you want. Ugh I hate Hoetama treats you, you should let me beat her ass. I bet she'll give you your money then. Her ole bald head no walls having ass looking like something off the Planet of the Apes ugly ass. You sure you don't want me to beat that ass for you?" She said looking at me. I had tears running down my face laughing at her.
"No girl I'm not worrying about her."
We talked some more until the bell rung for is to go home. Jane and I walked outside together. When she saw Mark she ran to him and they kissed like they was ready to fuck each other right in front the school. Once the finished kissing Mark told me hey until somebody tapped his glass from inside the car. While Mark was talking to the person in the car Yaya came up to me.
"I'll be by your house at four ok." I told her.
"Ok Nae don't chicken out on me and don't forget about what I said about Tam hoe ass." She told me while punching the air like she was fighting I just laughed and walked away. When I got home I went straight to my room that looked more like a shoe box and packed my clothes. After I was done I laid on my bed and wNt to sleep. I woke up to Brittany in my room trying to lay Shy in my bed. I shook my head and told her I was about to leave. She begged me to watch her but I still told her no. She got mad and told me she don't need me anyways and left out my room. I looked at the time and it was 3:20 p.m. I went to my aunt and told her I was sleeping at Jane house.
"I told you I don't like that hoe. She think she better than everybody since her daddy a doctor and her mommy a lawyer." She told me with a stank face. It's true Yaya parents is a doctor and lawyer but she don't rub it in nobody gave about it or about the money they have. After she told me that I just walked out her room got my things and caught the bus to Yaya house.
"What you want to wear?" Yaya asked me.
"I don't know let me look." I looked at her clothes until I found an all into one short set. I went took a shower. After 40 minutes later I got out and put cocoa butter on my body and got dress. I walked out the bathroom and Jane was just looking at me.
"Jane what is you looking at at do it look bad. OMG I should change...."
"No it's cute. I'm just shocked you have a body that you b hiding under them clothes." She cut me off from what I was saying.
"Thanks you now can you do my hair?"
She came and stayed flat ironing my hair 3o minutes later she was done with my hair. I didn't need make up so I just put on on some lip gloss and we left. When we got to the party I saw it was all older people here.
"Un Yaya I thought it was a party why we look like the youngest ones here?"
"We are he's 20 that's why they are here." With that she got out the car and left me just sitting there. After a few minutes I got out and walked slowly in the big house. All these old ass men kept trying to talk to me and kept asking me for my name and number. I told them jail bait and kept walking looking for Jane. When I found her she was in the kitchen to Mark and some other boy but I couldn't see his face. I didn't know if I should just go over there or what. The boy who had his back turned misted have felt somebody looking at him because he turned around and I was lost for words. He stood about 6'5 light skin with dreads with cute light brown eyes; and by the shirt he have on I can tell he have tattoos on his arms. When his eyes met with mine I quickly turned away, yea he fine or whatever but I'm only 17 and he look like he 20 or 21 years old. After I looked away a Yaya called me over. I walked slowly over to them.
"Hey y'all." I spoke
"Sup." Mark and the boy said. Mark then introduced me and his friend.
"Kain this is Yaya friend Janae', Janae' my nigga Kain." Mark said
"Hey lil ma." Kain spoke.
"Um hey but my name is not "lil ma" it's Janae' or Nae." I said. After I said that Jane hit my and I hit her ass right back. Kain and Mark busted out laughing at us. Jane and I looked at each other then at then like "what the fuck funny". They just kept laughing so we walked away to get something to eat and talk.

"So do you like him?" Yaya asked
"Who" I played dumb.
"Kain duhh I saw how you was looking at him."
"He cute and all that but I'm only 16 in high school and he look like he 20 or 21 so no I don't like him." I said she went on and on about why I should like him but I wasn't listening. I felt eyes on me so I turbot to see who it was. It was Kain looking at me while talking to my cousin friend Baby D. Baby D stopped talking to see what he was looking at and saw it was me and started walking my way.
"Why is my man looking at you lil hoe what you do fuck him in the bathroom?" Baby D said. I just looked at her like she was stupid and laughed at her dumb ass. Jane was about to hit the girl until I stopped her.
"Look here Baby D the only hoe is you so watch your mouth before I punch you in it and ask your so called man why he looking at me. He must like what he see." I told her. She looked mad but didn't say nothing so I laughed again and me and Jane walked away.
After being at the party for four hours me and Jane wanted to leave so Mark and Kain Wales us to the car. I went and got in the car while Yaya and Mark kissed. I was thinking about school when I heard a tap on the window; I looked and saw it was Kain so I put the window down.
"Why you sitting in the car and I'm out here?" He asked
"How old are you?"
"21"
"Well I'm 16 and I don't talk to older people bye."
Yaya got in the car and we pulled off.
"Mark told me Kain likes you." She said.
"Oh well I just told him I don't talk to older people."