Never Let Go

Prolouge

6 months before...

I couldn't help but smile when I felt my phone vibrate against my pocket. I knew who it was right away. I quickly took it out to see if it was really him, and it was. My smile quickly faded and my heart began to beat hard against my chest. 

"Call me now." It said. I dialed his number and waited patiently. He finally picked up after four rings. 

"Hey? Is everything okay?" I asked worried, confused and still feeling a bit uneasy.

"Meet me at the park around three pm." He said bluntly and hung up.

Around two thirty I head down to the park, and it started to rain sadly. I forgot my umbrella. I walked up to the wired gate and slid it open. I looked around to see if he was here yet and he was. He was leaned against the tether pole with his hood over his head, slumped. I walked up to him and hugged him right away, his body tensed up but he hugged me back. 

He took a deep breathe and took off his hood and looked at me. The rain was getting harder and louder then usual. I looked back into his chocolate brown eyes that were slightly covered from his wet hair lingering over them. He looked down at his hands and started to fumble with his thumbs.

"Is everything okay Caleb?" I asked grabbing his hands and wrapping them up in mine, he felt so cold. I frowned at the coldness on his hands, they were turning purple from the coldness. He must have been out here for hours. 

"No, I don't ... " He paused and looked up at me and pulled his hand away from mine. 

"This isn't working out Ashley." He looked up at me. 

"Caleb, what do you mean?" I asked looking into his eyes trying to understand what the hell he means. He sighed in frustration and ran his hands through his now soaked hair. 

"I'm doing this for you. I'm breaking up with you. I do love you Ashley, you're my everything. But this isn't gonna work out." I could feel my eyes already burning, tears were begging to come out of my eyes. My vision became blurry but I still stared at him in astonishment. 

"If you loved me...you wouldn't be doing this!" My throat began to throb. I just wanted to cry, I wanted to curl up in a ball and let it all out. He stared at me with no pain, no expression but anger. He stood there without saying a word for almost 10 minutes. I finally broke. A tear fell out of my eyes, the hot tear burned against my cold wet cheek. 

"What did I do wrong?" I asked wiping my eyes. "Tell me, what did I do wrong?!" I begged for a answer but he just stood there. His face pale as ever. 

"It's not you. It's me. I don't think were gonna work out. Later on you're going to thank me for this!" He snapped. 

"Thank you for what?! Crushing my fucking heart? Yeah, that's a real acomplishment!" I yelled out my sobs instead of my tears. I could feel my heart beating out of my chest. It hurt. I felt the pain I had never wanted to feel. He started to pace back and forth against the soaking bark chips, I watched him with tears rolling down my face thinking what the hell went wrong? 

"You wouldn't understand!" He yelled back at me, his nostrils flaring. 

"Then help me understand Caleb! Tell me that hurting people is a great thing! Tell me it is!" I screamed back in his face. I could feel my body shaking in anger. He stopped and looked at me with anger filled in his eyes, but also pain deep down. 

"I have to go." He looked at me and came closer to me. I felt my knees get weak. I didn't want him to leave. I didn't want this to be the last time we see eachother. His cold palm touched my cheek and he sighed and look deep in my eyes. His cold lips touched mine, it wasn't the same though. I kissed back and wrapped my arms around his soaking body, I held tight not wanting to let him go. Not now. The kiss lasted a short 20 seconds, he finally forced himself to pull away from my mouth. His arms wrapped around mine holding me against him. His arms calapse and I held on for a bit longer.. "I love you" I mummbled against his soaking shirt. He pulled away from and looked at me with tears in his eyes. 

"I'm sorry.." I whispered as my throat throbbed and tears began to run down my face. He shook his head slowly and began to walk away. I sad down on the pavement and began to cry. My chest was hurting. My throat was already throbbing to the point where I couldn't breath and cry at the same time. I sat there for what seemed like hours. I began to walk home and thought long and hard about all this only making my pain worse. I never would have thought that I would be walking away. Walking away.. Without him. I'll Never Let Go to this.