Love Within Scars

Chapter 9

Not edited, Sorry.

Watch the video above. It is so mcuh inpiring and meaningful. I was listening to it while I wrote this chapter..

For anyone who want to know its name. It is Jet Black Heart from 5 seconds of summer's new album Sounds Good Feels Good..

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Previously:

My conscience was swooning and telling me that a kiss on the neck means desire. I can barely understand her words as she screams. Sometimes I feel so weird with my imagination. I cleared my throat as I filled a cup of water and took a sip. My revenge should be staisfying even though I liked the small act that he did.

"So, Harry, Who is Anna? and why does she talk like she knew you since you were little?"

I battled my eyelashes and looked at him innocently. I am just gonna blow him with a little of my irresistible flirting.

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Suddenly, Harry's face dropped and he said almost distatefully "she WAS my mom's best friend"

I frowned a little. Obviously, the subject is touchy for him so I dropped it.

"She is a quite charming woman. So what is the plate that you usually order when you come here?"

His eyes brightened again and I smiled. "Oh you'll see. This is gonna be the best Chinese food you will ever have probably in your entire life."

"I doubt it" I said looking straight at his eyes. The Vodka's kicking in my veins and I am thankful for I have to get my revenge perfectly. I placed my hand on his that was resting and the table and started drawing invisible circles. "You see, my mom went to China for a couple years when she was young and that's when she got her infatuation with their food so she merely worked at a restaurent just to learn the recipe and almost every week-end we either go out or she would just cook the Chinese food"

He seemed lost for words. His body went completely rigid and goosebumps were visible on his arm skin since he took off his jacket and was wearing a white T-shirt. I smirked as my sonscience clapped proudly.

When he cleared his throat to talk, Anna came from nowhere with a big plate in her hands and a teenage boy beside her holding a bottle of fresh water. I thanked him when he poured me a glass and immediatly emptied it. My throat felt fresh again and I am all ready to eat the food in front of me. The smells is so inviting that I almost forgot the presence of Anna who smiled and said "Someone is hungry I see. Hope you enjoy it. If you need anything, you know the place Harry and don't be shy Care to ask anything from me"

With that she left us to our dinner. I met Harry's intense green eyes and I could feel my self melting under this look so I quickly looked at the plate and chose to take a peace of fish that is cut in the shape of a circle and decorated with some Chinese sauce as I can decipher. I munched it and instantly let out a moan, closing my eyes and letting my self wonder in this heavenly flavour.

When I reopened them, I saw a puzzled Harry with open mouth slightly opened. I took another piece of this heavenly food and stuffed it in his mouth. He munched it and smiled a little. I smiled sweetly back at him.

The dinner went by with Harry asking random things about school and what I would prefer doing after graduating from school. To be honest, I don't know how to answer that question. No doubt that I wanted since I was a kid to be a lawyer and avenge weak people but at this time I am really doubting that a weak person like me can do such a noble thing. Nevertheless, I told him my childhood dream. He told me that he wanted to be a doctor and learn more about human's body.

After some time, the big plate was empty and we were sipping a Chinese Tee that astonishingly helped me digest my diner. My mind is floating and I was smiling and laughing more than I ever had in the last month. 

Right now, we were laughing at how a couple who clearly are on their first date ever and how the girl is all flirty and happy while the guy was busy stuffing his food and making chewing noise. Harry kept saying what would the girl say in a song like speech and I got to tell you the boy has got a great voice.

When we finished our crazy talk and after getting dirty looks from the poor girl itself, I got from my chair and went straight to the bathroom. My image in the mirror was shocking. I missed this cute Caroline with flushed cheek and a dorky smile on her face. I took out my jacket to check on my cuts. They hurted me less this evening and I am thankful for that for I would hate to force myself to forget about them when I clearly want to shed more tears whenever they hurted. They look deep and dry blood was stuck on my flesh so I washed them gently, then my hands and my face. I feel fresh again. As I was wearing my jacket back again, the girl stormed in the girl's bathroom angry and giving me sceptical looks.

I harriedly went out but wish I didn't as I saw Anna talking to Harry. No scratch that, I was listening perfectly every word of their conversation which went this way.

"You rarely bring girls here... Only if they are family or your dad's friends girls.. What's the catch?"

Anna asked Harry who answered her shrugging "Why should there be a catch? we are just friends."

My heart shuttered into million pieces at these words and I went straight back to my sad, self harm girl hours ago. How stupid was I to think that I can make something in my life.

'well you are a naive girl. You only met him for like two or three days and you want more?' My conscience reasoned but why do I feel like I have known him for years?

"Oh kiddo.. I miss these words when a guy deny any feelings to the only girl that will have his heart. But the twinkle in his eyes give away everything. Your dad was a love fool too and you are just as foolish as him. Just be careful. Girls can be mean sometimes."

"You are exaggerating Anna. I promise there is nothing between us"

She shrugged her shoulders and said "yeah... yeaah... Whatever you say. But.."

At this rate I couldn't take anymore rejection and mademy way towards the table. Anna's eyes were on me the whole time as if she knew I was eavesdropping but I don't care. My mood is ruined and I want to go to home and sleep. I made a promise to myself to drag Liam with me to the hospital.

"Shall we go?" Harry asked and I nodded too fast which made him frown and say

"is everything alright"

"yeah.. Why wouldn't it be?" I smiled sweetly and gave Anna two kisses on each of her cheeks. Appearently, the food was free because Harrya just took my hand and guided us out of the restaurent after giving the elder woman another bear hug and a kiss on her forehead.

The ride to my house was silent and I thanked him as I got out of his car and made my way in my home. My dad was as usual asleep while the TV is on. I a cup of ice-cream from the fridge and jogged to my room. I know, I know that it is weird to eat ice-cream in the winter and that I can be ill and have a fever and that shit but that's all I want to. Missing a day from school with a perfect excuse would spare me the fake laughs and acts that I make.

I took out my clothes and pulled on my shorts and baggy white Tee-shirt. Then, I hurriedly plunged in my bed. Its covers were cold and sent shivers in my body as I stuffed the food in my mouth. Hot tears spring down my cold cheeks, the coldness of the ice-cream doing nothing to ease the rage devouring me on the inside but I have nothing to do but to pray that tomorrow can a better day with less pain.

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Do you like Chinese food? I never tasted one in my life and I feel sorry for myself but I hope one day I can taste it.

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