Dear Arizona|LGBT|completed but not edited

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A/N: I'm crying, we're in 'hot #transexual stories'.
I'm going to go cry some more, you're all so amazing.

March 25th 2016

Nothing happened, nothing, absolutely nothing. Aviva? She's been out and in the surgery room, I feel numb. Unable to cry, not even a tear threatens my eyes. I've haven't visited Everest much, actually, at all. I'd like to keep away, away from my mistakes. I might be cowardly and my ways definitely are, but who gives a shit. My grandmother is slowly passing away, threatening a worker from an orphanage to knock on the door, possibly the police kicking the door down and grabbing me.
That's not that bad, I'll just start again, but is that what I want?
First, I promised something to myself. I must find that letter and I must read his suicide note.
The suicide note that wouldn't be written if I just shut my mouth and swallowed my love.
I was too afraid of the possibility that I was gay, a straight up faggot. It ruined me, it made me cry and Thor doesn't cry, well, he didn't.

Thor settled on Everest's bed, he was thinking about how he'd get his hands on his suicide note, the only thing that flashed through his mind was breaking in to a house. He knew it wasn't right, but dang it, he was already going to Hell.

"Sorry, God," he looked up at the ceiling, his eyes pointed at a flickering light, "I can't, I won't kill myself, but I just-" the tears that threatened his eyes just milliseconds before made their way down his face, he didn't even bother wiping them away, they'd just show up again.

He swallowed the lump in his throat and continued: "I know, I'm not the best Christian, Hell, I'm the worst. I killed two people, tried to commit, bullied, swore and am gay. I know that I can't be forgiven and that's why I give no flying shit to nothing," he leaned in and looked at Evrest, his lips touched Everest's and he suddenly felt as if he were a child again, finding his grandfather's missing puzzle piece, but this time it was his. It was only a short kiss, but it meant more than a million words and was brighter than a thousand stars.
"And that's my last sin, I'll love this boy, no matter what happens, if the stars stop glowing, I'll love him, if the sun stops shining, I'll love him. If he stops breathing, I'll love him. I'll always love him and I will save him, even if in the end he's the off switch to my star."

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