satisfaction - p.jm & j.jk

twenty four

(WARNING. IF YOU ARE EASILY TRIGGERED THEN DON'T READ THIS BC IM SATAN AND SHIT GOES DOWN LITERALLY GOES DOWN. YOU'LL GET WHAT I MEAN BY GOES DOWN ON THE LAST FEW LINES)

Recap

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I looked up at him and stared into his dark chocolate eyes.

As much as I don't want this feeling to go, I couldn't lie to him.

Couldn't.

"T-tomorrow"

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Third person POV

Jimin's eyes fluttered shut as the anaesthetic took over in his system, this could either be his last day being alive or be the day that saved his life. His life had always been in the hands of other people but never had it depended on having a major operation, him now having to rely fully on the nurses, doctors and surgeons.

The repeated tapping of fingers on a table were being emitted from Jungkook's room as he waited for the news on Jimin, he had no idea who the lung doner was and desperately wished he could've thanked them, they gave up their life to save the one person he cared about and he would be eternally grateful.

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"Closed?" Yoongi said as he looked up at the small sign in the coffee shop window, his hand intertwined with Taehyung's.

"Huh, guess Hoseok's busy. It's Wednesday though, he loves Wednesdays" Taehyung spoke with a hint of sadness in his voice as he looked down at Yoongi's frowning face. "We'll just have to come tomorrow instead, shouldn't Jimin be waking up now?"

"Yeah it's around now that Jin said, poor bloke he's shattered. 5 hours in an operating theatre, at least Jimin's ok, he thinks" the smaller male said as they headed to Jimin's room, ready to greet him when he woke up.

"I still can't get over the fact that Jin won't tell anyone who the donor is until Jimin's awake, it's not like anyone will know them, there's hundreds of donors"

"Probably in case Jimin doesn't want people to know who it is"

"Yeah I guess"

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"S...so the operation went f...fine?" Jimin stuttered as he got used to the feeling of being able to breathe without issues, without feeling like he's about to pass out with every word he spoke. He looked around at the smiling faces in the room, including one frown as normal from Yoongi; Namjoon, Jin, Taehyung and most importantly Jungkook, who's smile was brighter than the sun. One person was missing though, Hoseok. 

"Absolutely fine, went nice and swiftly" Jin said, reassuringly patting Jimin's head with a small chuckle. His smile faded and turned into a saddened expression as he looked away. "I have a letter for you. It's from your donor"

He handed Jimin a piece of paper with writing on both sides. 

"Read it out loud" Jin said softly.

'     Jimin,

I hope the op goes well (: The thing is, the letter you are reading now is both a letter explaining why you now have my lungs and my suicide letter. Sorry for putting this on you but I need people to know why this is happening.

I needed his love before I fell deeper into my own mind but nobody was there to save me, I needed someone  but I ran out of time to find the one. I found out about his other lover and new I wasn't the lucky one. I'm sorry it ended this way but I was chained up in thoughts of self pity and thought I was a monster. I managed to hopefully save the life of someone who meant something dear to others and for that I finally feel like I've been freed.