October 2009
Dear Journal,
He did it again. I just hung up with Phil and he said that he was happy that we talked, he enjoyed it too, and he wants to meet me. I'm not sure I'm ready! I'm so excited. I wasn't sure that I was ready to admit this but I feel like I might be developing feelings for Phil. I'm not sure. I know that I am into women but there is just something about Phil. His stability, his warmth, the fact that he genuinely cares about me (hopefully he does). I don't care that he lives over a hundred miles away from me. Life I guess will find a way. I haven't relapsed in three weeks. I've talked to Phil instead. I used to relapse to feel something, to find an outlet for everything I couldn't express that hurt me emotionally. But, now I have Phil. He makes me feel like everything is better and that I'm safe. We meet in two weeks. I'm so excited. I genuinely feel excitement again. I feel better.
-Dan Howell
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FanficWhen a teenage Dan Howell's anxiety gets to be too much he is given a simple to journal to help express his feelings. Join him on his journey to help himself. This is also based off of a prompt I got on some website/tumblr blog/reddit page/smoke sig...
