Burnt Roses Are As Black As My Soul

)4( Trapped

I'm feeling trapped in busy-ness.

Others feel trapped in loneliness and boredom.

I don't have the courage to say 'no' ,

Others don't have courage to say 'sure' .

I had my thoughts before,

But now I can't even think.

Others are stuck with thinking alone.

The only time I have alone is the night,

And I just want to sleep.

Others are alone in a dark room most of their days.

I want my busy schedule to shrink

And when I do say no,

I want People to take my opinion

I don't want them to make me.

I have a full house with people in it,

And I cant do the horrible things I want to.

I just want a balance,

The kind of balance that makes me not want to punch a wall.

Now I want to scream my lungs out,

But I know I'll upset someone.

I'm stuck inside these broken walls

and I don't know how to break myself out.

I'm sick of feeling tired and exhausted.

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I don't know if people will relate I just needed to get something off my chest.