I Love You James [On hold]

ILYJ 6

  It was Lazarus

I woke up and i still couldn't believe it was lazarus.. he seems to be a okay yesterday, what was the fight all about? i gotta stop thinking about other's problem..

ugh, i got up and prepared myself to class. i should buy new pairs of shoes today because i couldn't handle this anymore. or even better some flipflops. wait no, they aren't school appropriate clothes. 

Wait, What's that? 

i found a golden pin engraved with the name of james in the floor, did i somehow.. have this? ugh never mind. i got out of door and smelled liquor.  well christ and i are the only one who lives here so i'm guessing he had left some opened liquor. i should clean it tomorrow if i have time left. i should cook pancakes for him. to make him feel better for his self. i mean everybody has a problem so he shouldn't drunk, cause he might die. he's too young to die. 

i went down the stairs and made some pancakes. i made christ's first because he might be hungry good thing he didn't pass out.

i stacked ten pancakes on a plate add some butter, syrup, whip cream on top and a cherry. I Left it in the table so i can cook mine. i went back to the  frying pan ang started cooking. Going to School is nice, I'm meeting alot of people. Well, except for privacy reasons. although i really want to live in normal life. I did not doing what I love made me this. being known by random people. its so nice but so bad.

"Ang Sarap nito, Ikaw ba may gawa?" Who the Heck was that? It sounded like james Voice. Am i Hallucinating or what? I continued Cooking the pancakes 

"ehem.. Cyan, Anjan ka pa ba?" What the heck did i just heard?! I faced my back and there i saw james enjoying christ's pancakes. I just stood there for a minute. i pinched myself. 

Aww it hurts ya know..

"Sayo ba toh? Pasyensya na ah.. Gutom na kasi ako." He Explained. I just realized he is topless. oh ma gawd! 

I turned back.. geez! my cheek hit up "a...." i trailed of.

"Ay, Sorry. D na ako nakapag bihis pa. kakauwi ko lang kase" I think my tears were going to fall. this is so crazy! from that guy who i used to play with when i was younger with this. he looks so different. i couldn't believe my very eyes. i should not cry! I pinch my self so i could stop crying but it wasn't a help.

"Cyan!" He shouted. out of suprisement i looked back but he rushed infront of me. it smells like something is burning. "Ano bayan Cyan, Mag-ingat ka next time. Pasalamat ka andito ako" he said. Oh yea! My pancake burned, i looked at him, a beautiful sight of his back was introduced to my eyes. he looks so.. gorgeous. it didn't sounded like he was mad. gawd! seriously.. i just cant, is this really happening? 

"S-s-Sorry" I stuttered. i really couldn't believe my two eyes! i helped him out in cleaning it. 

"Okay lang, ako nalang maglulu-- Teka umiiyak kaba?" he looked at me. unfortunately i was looking at him too so he saw that my tears were falling

"James??" I said as he used his thumb to wipe my tears. 

"Ah.. Ano, Sorry ha kinain ko yung pagkain mo, nakasunog kapa tuloy. ako nalang magtutuloy kaso isa lang. malalate kana eh" he said. i nodded then guided me into the chair of the dinning table. 

he served me a piece of pancake i added syrup on it and butter and started taking bite on it.

"Kumusta kana?" he said.

"Okay lang.." I replied

"Parang ang awkward?" it really is..

"Bakit d mo man ako ginising nung pag-uwi mo." Woah! is that even nadine i hear? I dont think so. Why did i even ask that question. he just looked at me in silence "ahh. S-Sor--"