The Need to Speak

Date Nine - Connection

A few days later, a loud knock startled Alex as he was sketching in his home office. He looked at the clock to see it was 3:34. Scott was coming over in an hour and a half, but Alex swore the knocks sounded like him. He went to the door and opened it, revealing Scott.

"Scotty. I though you were coming over at 5." Alex said as he ushered Scott into the apartment. Scott looked distracted and maybe a bit angry, maybe upset.

"I had to come over, Allie. I realized I never told you about tour plans, so I figured I would do it not instead of during our date." They ended up sitting on the couch facing each other.

"We leave in a month to start rehearsals, then straight into tour. We'll be gone for the better part of three months. Then we're back for two weeks before another month of touring. I'm sorry I forgot to tell you two weeks ago when it was announced. I think I just didn't want to leave you, so I was pretending it wasn't happening. But we start rehearsals tomorrow, so I can run from it anymore. I'm sorry if your mad; it was a selfish thing of me to do. We can cancel tonight if you need to." Scott rushed out his little speech quickly. He looked down at his lap.

"Scott, look at me. It's okay. I knew it was coming. You think I don't follow the band or your personal twitter account? Or that I haven't been checking dates? Hell, I bought tickets to all your shows within driving distance already. Next time, I'd like to hear it from you BEFORE my twitter blows up." Alex was a little upset that it had taken Scott so long to mention that they would be seeing a lot less of each other soon, but he understood why it took a while. "Please don't keep things like this from me. I forgive you, though, and I love you."

Scott genuinely felt bad about keeping the information from Alex, realizing how stupid he had been to think Alex hadn't found out about it yet.

"I feel horrible, Alex. Why don't we cancel tonight, I don't want you mad at me all night. Just give me a call when you want to get together. IF you want to get together."

Alex knew Scott was beating himself up. "Scott. Don't leave. I can't stay mad at you for this. I should have brought it up when I saw it on twitter. I don't want to cancel tonight's date, and we aren't breaking up over this. This is not worth it."

Alex leaned forward to kiss Scott.

"I am truly sorry, Alex, I realize how shitty I've been. I should have told you earlier. I've seen you a lot in these past two weeks since it's been announced. I'm such a dick."

"Hey. I forgive you, and thank you for coming over and talking to me. There's no point in talking about it any more. I'm going to change then we can go somewhere."

Alex stood up, noticing a shy look on Scott's face. Alex just rolled his eyes and pulled Scott up to follow to the bed room. Alex opened his closest. He glanced at Scott to try to match his level of dress, but ended up just staring at him. Scott noticed and smiled.

The room suddenly felt small. They were close, but it felt like they were miles away. Too far. Scott closed the distance and just stood in front of Alex. They mad no contact, except with their eyes.

"I'm ready." Scott whispered before kissing Alex. Scott pulled away to remove Alex's tank top.

"Are you sure Scott? All the way?" Scott just nodded and pulled Alex away from the closet. He laid on the bed slowly, pulling Alex with him. They finished pulling their clothes off. For what felt like forever, they moved against each other, kissing and tugging. Not one hand stayed still for more then a second. Hips were gridding and lips were kissing. Alex pulled away and grabbed the lube from his nightstand.

"Scott. What do you want?" Scott knew what Alex was asking, but was nervous to answer. Alex cupped his jaw to direct his gaze. "What do you want? Forget about me for a sec. If this could go anyway, what way would it go?"

Scott whispered his plea, "I want you in me; please make love to me. I need to know you love me." Alex kissed Scott slowly after whispering "I will always love you". He poured some lube in his hand and pulled away. He sat between Scott's open legs.

"Deep breaths, Baby. I promise I'm not trying to hurt you. Tell me if you want to stop."

Alex put his finger on Scott's bud, rubbing gently to fully lube him. Scott was already moaning, which turned into whining when Alex slide the first finger in. Scott was breathing slowly and nodded for Alex to continue. He slowly pushed a second finger in and pumped slowly.

"More, Allie." Scott pleaded. Alex pushed in a third finger and twisted his wrist gently. "I need more." Scott requested breathlessly. Alex removed his fingers and lubed his cock generously.

"Scott, look at me. I've bottomed before, and it can hurt. The second you want to stop, tell me. The first time is not exactly easy."

"I trust you, just go slow." Alex positioned himself so his length was against Scott's entrance. He pushed forward enough to go through the tight ring of muscles.

"Shit." Scott yelled. Alex held still. "Okay, more." Alex complied and moved slowly forward. Scott started to stroke himself. "Allie, it hurts...so...too big..." Scott whined.

"I'm going to pull out. I should have prepped you more, you're so fucking tight. It's too much for the first time."

"NO. Not yet. Just go all the way and stop. I want my first time to be with you."

Alex realized he needed to find Scott's prostate quickly if he wanted this to be a good experience for Scott.

"Do you trust me, Babe? This might hurt, but it will feel good soon."

"Yes. Do it." Scott whimpered. Alex moved slowly, changing the angle of his hips. He felt Scott's fingers dig into his back. Alex was about to give up when Scott moaned.

"Right there, Alex, yes, more."

Alex thrusted into the spot again and again as he sped up. Scott was moaning louder and louder, and Alex was feeling a burning in in balls.

"Scott, I'm almost there."

"Me too, Allie." Alex reached down to stroke Scott, a moment later, he felt Scott clench around him. Alex exploded in Scott just as Scott exploded on his stomach.

Alex collapsed onto Scott. They wrapped their arms around each other.

"I love you, Scott."

"I love you, Alex."

Neither moved for a while. Eventually, Alex rolled off Scott, and he easily fell out now that he was soft again. Scott burrowed into Alex's chest and fell asleep quickly, ignoring the fact the sun was still shining bright.

Fin