Protection

Never Ends

Nikki's POV: For the past month or so mom has been going to this house by the local hospital. Dad is the one to drive her to them since ever since thanksgiving she no longer drives. He also makes all of us kids get into the car to drop her off. I just don't get it why did he come back? I'm just waiting for the day he leaves again and I know it will be soon, he never stays this long. The fact that mom is allowing him to stay in the house, even worse the same bed blows my mind after all he's done. We deserve someone much better as a father than him. All we can look forward to is Christmas which is just a few away. Mom and Nana have been preparing for our big Christmas dinner which I am always excited about. Our moms side is the Italian side so we do the big Christmas like they do in Italy, and the best part of it all is the food. I for one day out of the whole year forget about what's going on and just enjoy the time I have with my family. I have a bad feeling though about this years Christmas Eve. In the recent days mom and dad have been bickering every night about something and it is annoying. Just need him gone and out of my life forever.

*** CHRISTMAS EVE FINALLY CAME AND THEY SPENT THE WHOLE NIGHT AT THEIR NANA'S  HOUSE. WHEN IT WAS STARTING TO GET LATE AND THEY DECIDED TO HEAD HOME. WHEN THEY GOT TO THEIR HOME BRIE STARTED TO WALK JJ UPSTAIRS. NIKKI SLOWLY TRAILED BEHIND SINCE SHE HEARD HER PARENTS ARGUING AND WAS CURIOUS. ***

"Your not leaving Jon, it's Christmas fucking Eve for crying out loud. Your kids should come before your little whore you have been seeing." At this point mom was sobbing and pleading for dad to stay and he just was so persistent on going.  Mom was blocking the front door trying to get him to stay. He kept trying to push her to the side but she held her ground. "Give me your damn keys your not going anywhere." He was holding them in his hand high above his head and preventing her from reaching them.  She was clawing up his arm and eventually go them. She swung open the front door ad threw his keys in the bushes. "ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME YOU DUMB BITCH!" I never heard my dad call my mom that horrible name, and along with calling her that he took her and threw her on the couch and began to shake her and yell in her face. I couldn't take it I walked into the living room and my mom instantly said the words I never wanted to hear her say for the rest of my life, "Your father was just trying to leave so he could go and be with his little whore." I stayed strong because I knew showing my weakness in front of them would just destroy me. He finally spoke and all I wanted to do was kill him. "Nicole don't listen to her she just had a few to many drinks tonight, I wouldn't do that to you kids. Go up to bed and I will come say good night." When he said that my whole body began to stiffen from anger. How could he lie right to my face? I had enough and finally said something, "Just leave we all know you don't want to be here so just leave already." I wanted to say much more but I knew if I did he would just go after me next, so I just ran up to my room and got ready for bed and ended my night hoping it was all a dream.

I of course wake up to JJ bouncing on me and his face right in front of me. "Nikki wake up IT'S CHRISTMAS MORNING!" If anyone can make me smile it is JJ, I don't know where I would be without him. "Is Brie up?" He shakes his head no and I motion for him to charge her. We both pounce on her and force her to wake up. She moans and groans but eventually wakes up. "I'm gonna go wake up mom and dad, you girls coming?" Me and Brie just give each other the look and he just went any way without us responding. "Hey what happened last night with mom and dad? I had to turn JJ's tv on like full volume to mute out their yelling so he wouldn't question what was going on." I just sighed reliving all that I heard and saw last night, "Dad wanted to leave and go spend the night with his little slut instead of spending Christmas morning with his kids. So mom some how got his car keys threw them in the bushes out in the front and he got so angry, like I have never seen him that angry in my life. I don't want to tell you the rest because me thinking about it makes me upset and JJ can't see me like that today." Brie understood and just gave me a reassuring hug. "Come on mom and dad are up, they said we can go downstairs to open our gifts from Santa!" He ran over to us and grabbed both of our hands and dragged us down the stairs. The minute he saw all the gifts he was just in shock at how many gifts were under the tree for him. I have never seen him go through Christmas gifts that fast before in my life. I was like on my third when he was on his last. The room was very uncomfortable while opening our gifts since mom and dad were not on the best of terms at the moment. I knew he wanted to pick a fight but not infringe of us. "Gosh J you got some sick gifts, did Santa give you everything you wanted?" He was to caught up with one of the gifts to even realize I was talking to him. After a few minutes of our parents noting that we finished opening our gifts they got up and went outside to smoke a cigaret, how someone can do that first thing in the morning is beyond me. "Come on let's go get ready to g to Nana's house." All three of us brought our gifts to our room and got dressed for the day.

Getting to Nana's felt amazing. I was happy that the cousins could help me forget all that is going on because if it wasn't for them and my siblings I would be miserable and so done with this day. "Hey you guys watch JJ, I'm going upstairs to get something to eat." I was walking up the stairs and I saw my mom and dad out on the back porch of my Nana's house arguing. I guess it doesn't matter where they are. My aunt who I always loved because she understood what was going on and came up and hugged me. For some reason I just began to cry into her chest. "Nicole it's gonna be ok, you have all of us to help you kids. I'm always here for you." She just held me and rubbed my back to comfort me and ease the pain. But that was never going away. This was the Christmas that will haut me for the rest of my life, and which made me realize I no longer love holidays because they always led to an argument. My childhood was ruined because of a dumb whore and a moron no good father.