I can't remember who I used to be
I know it's there, but I just can't find it
No matter how much I try to remember, snapshots of the original me is all I can find
But my real memories have been forgotten
It's not like searching for a needle in a haystack
It's like searching for a single lock of hair in a freaking maze
I know I've changed, I can feel it
But what exactly have I turned into? Is it really so hard to change back?
Going to your destination and turning back without accomplishing anything
All because I've forgotten my purpose in life
And there was never anyone there to set me back on the right track
I was always alone, in a world unknown to me
Are people really programmed to live their miserable lives and die?
Or is there something else to it?
I want to remember the good times I've had
Not just snapshots and mere faces
I want to relive those moments
See for myself if they were precious moments or not
To cherish those beautiful feelings I've had
To smile more often in front of my loved ones
To be able to cheer someone up properly when they're down
But it's way out of my reach
Because that is how I used to be
And I can't turn back time because I wouldn't know how much time to look back on
I can't remember my past self
It's been hidden so deep I'm afraid it has been lost
And I'm tired of searching so much
The present belongs to the past
There is no future for me
I have no life, but I'm tired of having nowhere to live...
