"yah! Get out of here!"
"You're such a useless girlfriend"
"Why are you so stupid?"
"Shut up. I need none of your opinion"
"You don't deserve my love"
"why can't you be prettier like other girl?"
Those hurtful words from him still lingering through my mind. What a mean guy he is. I regret loving him for 3 years, he gave me none of his love but he only looks at me like I am a slut.What's the point to be in love me on the beginning but after relationship I'm the one who's been treated badly like a piece of trash.
These bruises and scars represents my sadness.I've self harm.When he came home from work, he often hit or punch me.He is being too abusive towards me.Sometimes he drown me with a pillow so I cannot breathe. Those cussing words came out from his mouth shattered my heart into a thousands of pieces.My mind is not at peace, why can't I be the old happy me?
I wanted to end this relationship. But I don't know how will he feel about it, I'm afraid that he will kill me.I can no longer suffering in this useless relationship.Should I attempt a suicide? Should I jump off a bridge or building. Eat poison? Shoot myself or being hit by a truck.Stab myself for many time untill I'm dead? Perhaps I can even eat excessive doses of sleeping pills.
What should I do.I would be insane if I often think about this things. But I need to get a quick escape from this depressing life.I was too anxious about many things.Thunder began to sound off while the lightning flashes here and there. I heard my room door opened. It was Pyo, standing there smiling.Usually he, will just scream at me.
"(y/n) lets have dinner." He approaches me while pushing my hair behind my ear.Why do he acts like this?My hands were shaking as tears falling down to my face.My chest is pumping in and out. "Don't be scared. I promise not to hurt you anymore." He said wiping my tears away. I'm sorry, I could not trust you again like I used to be. I've lost my trust towards you. I thought.
"Come on. Let's go"
Pyo is trying to kiss me but I avoid. He stare at me with confusion and dissapointment in his eyes.I look down as my hair blown by the fan.We both remain silence for a while as the rain fell drizzly outside.Suddenly I heard Pyo sobbing.I stare blankly towards him.He look at me and we both make eye contact.
Before this my heart was pounding and I can feel butterflies but now I do not feel anything.There was no expression in my face.Then he cupped my cheeks but I get up and walk ahead to the kitchen.I grab the knife and cut my wrist. I saw many blood flowing . "What are you doing?! Stop it"I heard him but then I collapsed on the floor.
Last word I heard was
"(y/n) i'm sorry."the sound of falling knife and sound of groaning in pain.
