Forever And Always

Chapter One

Hey Guys!

So here is chapter one!! Hope you like it! It's a pretty long chapter I think! This is her thinking back! The boys are gonna be in the next chapter :) Please comment/vote/fan !

Love you, <3 xxx

~Adoring Lou xoxox

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CHAPTER ONE

***FLASHBACK***

3 MONTHS EARLIER......

I sighed as I waited in the hospital for yet another set of results to come back. I was really bored and my mum had fucked off somewhere around the hospital. I haven't really been close to my mum ever since I got seriously sick. Well to be honest, I haven't really been that close to anyone ever since "he" left.

I'd shut myself off from everyone when he left. Became this anti-social person that answered questions with a simple yes or no and didn't delve into the subject, a person who spent her Saturday nights locked in her bedroom crying or sitting there staring off into space, a person that lost her friends and eventually lost herself.

I know you're all wondering why did I react so badly? Well I didn't just lose the love of my life, I lost my best friend. The person who made the hardest things seem easy and knew exactly how to make me happy and forget about any bad thing that happened, the one who knew where the ground was and kept it firmly beneath my feet, well until he left that is.

Even the thought of him was painful. I couldn't get his piercing blue eyes and his pink, soft kissable lips out of my head. It seemed like yesterday that we had become best friends, then we started going out, then our first kiss and then our first time together. All these great memories that seemed only like yesterday, must be about two years old now.

He tried to keep in touch, but I suppose that I didn't mean as much to him as I thought I did.  We shared so many things with each other over the years and we had such a special bond, a bond that I thought was unbreakable. But obviously I was wrong, and as soon as fame had him in it's grip, he fucked off without a second glance and left me behind.

A tear streamed down my face as I remembered the pain that him leaving had caused but I was pulled out of my thoughts when suddenly

"Alice Johnson, Dr.Reynolds will see you now." The nurse called.

 I heaved myself out of the chair and saw my mum walking towards me. I made my way towards the smiling nurse. I could tell from her fake smile that something was wrong, but I obviously knew that. So I just threw her a look and made my way into my doctors office and waited for my results.

The doctor wasn't in the room yet so I quickly seeped back into my thoughts. The pain I had been through in the last few weeks was unbelievable, I didn't think I could experience this type of pain. It was that type of blood-curdling pain that makes you want to scream and curl up in the foetal position, but other times its a dull and aching pain, one that makes you drunk with fatigue but still as unbearable. And the bruises all up my back were just as painful. I just wanted to sort this shit out and get on with my life. I had been to so many doctors and hospitals and had had all sorts of different tests done, but all with no such luck. But I had a feeling that this time that they knew something that was wrong.

I was once again pulled out of my thoughts as my doctor walked in the door with a solemn look on his face with my worried looking mother in tow.

We sat there and stared at each other for what seemed like years, each of us lost in ours thoughts but also waiting for someone to break this silence that was rapidly becoming awkward.