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I'm Sorry (NaruSasu)

I'm sorry.

I tried to save you, but there was nothing I could do. You wouldn't listen to me, no matter how much I screamed and cried. I tried to help, but you pushed me away. I tried to get you to see reason and I really wanted to help, no matter what it cost me; you did nothing but keep me distanced.

It's my fault though. I know that. I should have tried harder. I should have known that you would leave us that day. I should have been there for you when you needed me the most. But I wasn't. I wasn't there for my best friend, even though I knew something was wrong. I shouldn't have listened when you told me to go away, and now everyone is suffering because of me.

I'm so sorry.

It felt like we always did everything together back in those days. It would be just the four of us, hanging out and having fun, all of us smiling and laughing. Except, you never really smiled, did you? And we never noticed, it seemed. Maybe you thought we didn't care, but we did. I did.

I still do.

I see more than people give me credit for, you know. I saw the distance in your eyes. I saw the way you stared off into nothingness while we talked. And I just couldn't figure out how to pull you back from that ledge. I couldn't save you from that long drop, from the impact of hitting the ground.

There was something I could have done. I know there has to have been. I just couldn't get to you in time. I could talk to you, scream at you, but you only smiled at me and let it go right through. As often as we fought, as often as we shared a laugh, as often as anything, you would only let me see through you. You never showed me the real you that I could see lurking just beneath the surface of your skin.

You pushed me away further than I ever thought in those last days. I didn't realize it then. I understand now that you didn't want my help. Still, I could have saved you.

After you left I couldn't bring you back, either. I did everything I could think of; we searched for you, fought for you; I screamed and cried and begged you to stay, to come back with me. But you turned and left. You stepped on the heart I laid out for you and ground it into the dust, like none of this had mattered. You spat on the friendship I thought we had and acted like nothing had been there to begin with.

We trained together, ate together, made jokes and laughed together! We did everything we wanted and we had so much more we could have done! We could have had that fight if it would have made you stay! But we didn't. And you left.

I should have done something to help, to keep you from leaving behind the village and everyone who loved you. I should have tried harder to stop you. I should have been there for you, my closest friend, and I wasn't.

I'm so sorry, Sasuke.