'Sebson' - Began with a Bang

Part 3 - Confession

A week on and were now in Malaysia. It was Saturday and in a few hours was Qualifying. On the Friday Seb and Jenson saw each other around the Paddock but didn't talk to one another, mainly unsure of what to say about what happened last weekend in the Hotel. Jenson seemed a little more shaky than Seb. Jenson felt disgusted in himself, 'What was I thinking' he kept asking himself. Jenson thinks that it was just the stupid Jenson he knew himself as doing something even more stupid, but hoping that it is to be forgotten. However, Jenson had it stuck in his mind. That him and Sebastian almost kissed made him feel slightly uncomfortable, but on the other hand, he had a feeling that he wanted to take it a little further. Maybe Jenson did have more feelings for Sebastian then he'd initially thought. But he knew what he did was wrong, he was still with Jessica and it's not easy to get off a relationship so secure as that.

Qualifying was not long away. Teams and drivers were getting ready for the start of Q1.

Before Qualifying began, Jenson went to use the public rest-room opposite McLaren and Red Bull Garages, the closest toilet to him. He exited the McLaren Garage through the Back entrance and crossed the busy pathway full of Interviewers and fans to the Rest-room. He opened the door to the toilets, only to see Sebastian in there too. Seb was washing his hands, but then to look up and see Jenson. The two stared for a few moments, when Jenson turned to the cubical's and headed in that direction, but then stopped by the words of Seb.

"Jenson, about last weekend...."

With an angry tone in his voice, Jenson interrupted.

"There's nothing to speak of, Seb. I didn't mean to try and kiss you was just the alcohol, it had gotten to my head"

The facial expression on Seb's face became dull, upset and apprehensive.

"Jenson let me talk - "

"Seb why can't you let it go? It was a very stupid , drunken move by me and you seem to be so worked up over it!"

"Cause I love you Jenson!" Seb almost shouted the sentence at the Briton. Jenson immediately froze. He looked shocked. His rival in Formula 1, his 'best friend' just confessed of loving him!?

"What?" This time Jenson sounded a little calmer.

"Since the crash, and the time apart we had, I realised that I ruined something more then a friendship. I was loosing the best thing I had"

Sebastian said with a tear almost falling from his eye.

Silence filled the rest-room as Jenson tried to take in what Sebastian has just told him. Even though Jenson looked shocked and Angry at the German, the feeling was kinda mutual.

Seb walked closer to Jenson

"I'm not trying to freak you out or making you feel uncomfortable but I just had to get it out there Jense. I love you okay"

Jenson Didn't know how to answer. He found that only strange noises had exited his lips.

Before Jenson could finish, Sebastian threw himself onto him, pushing his lips against Jenson's. Seb wrapped his arms around Jenson's waist to push Jenson back, having a hard hit with the wall. Sebastian tried to deepen the kiss but Jenson pushed him away

"No Seb we can't do this"

"Yes we can Jense" Seb tried to pull the Briton back Into a kiss but Jenson walked out, stormed off with a few tears falling from his eyes. He forgot all about going to the bathroom, taking a piss had completely left his mind.

Jenson had these thoughts through his head all day, and Seb felt guilty for what he had done to Jenson. Kissing him then was the wrong thing to do and Seb new it, this may have ruined his changes of ever having a relationship with Jenson. Or even a friendship.

Sunday, and the race had ended. Webber first, Seb second and Jenson was in third. The drivers were in the winning press conference, about to be asked about the race.

Mark had finished talking now it was Seb's turn

"So Sebastian you couldn't take another victory today but you brought a one-two home, how do you feel about the race?"

"No it's not a bad result. Overall I'm happy to bring home a one-two for the team, they deserve it, they have been working hard all winter to give us a race winning car and they have done a fantastic job"

"So do you think it will be Red Bull's year?"

"It's too early to say. Obviously we hope that we can carry this early momentum through the rest of the season, but as always it isn't going to be easy. Mclaren and Ferrari are looking very strong so I expect to see a lot more competition in upcoming races"

Seb finished his final words as it was Jenson time to speak.

"And lastly Jenson, you finished third today, you must be happy with tush result?"

Jenson was staring into thin air, not paying any attention to what's going on around him. He had those thoughts on his mind and soft hands on his cheek, gentle lips over his.

"Jenson?" The press went silent.

He apologised and asked for them to continue.

"Are you happy with where you finished today?"

"Well I hoped for higher but these two are unstoppable at the moment, just hope for more success as the season progresses"

The three of them replied walked out and Jenson was the first to leave the room, he was stood outside looking like he was waiting for someone. Then Seb walked out, Jenson saw him and immediately pulled the German towards him. Gripping Seb's arm and bringing him round the corner where unseen.

When hidden, he stopped Seb, pushed him back slightly then leaned forward. Jenson gave Seb a hard Kiss, this time both drivers enjoyed it, Jenson forgetting all about Jessica. About the consequences and the humility. Jenson just needed to kiss Sebastian.

Jenson wanted to break the kiss to say something but Sebastian kept his lips attached . This is what Seb had always wanted, finally being able to kiss Jenson made him feel alive. The kiss stopped, Jenson put his hand on Sebastian's neck and his forehead against Seb's. He quietly mummered

"I love you too Seb"

Seb kept his eyes locked to Jenson's blue eyes, then going in for another kiss when Jenson said those words to him. He had never felt so happy.