Just a Boy

Part 2

I woke . You already know my routine I did everything except for brush my teeth . Ever since my died I didn't really care about anything . Dad has drastically changed , he drinks all day anytime I see him he's drinking . I feel so so sad for him . He has to raise 4 girls on his own . He moved away from all his family ever since he married mom . My grammy never really liked my mom I never knew why . She probably feels horrible she always treated her like nothing and she could never repay her . Father has been very violent since mom died . We were arguing yesterday about nothing and he slap in the face , I felt his hand moved across my face . I fell to the ground and I said " Daddy it's me " and continued to cry . When I said that he felt ashamed of what he had done he just never told me . He left my on the floor crying with a cigarette in his mouth . He also choked Angel yesterday for not saying thank you when he gave her a soda for  an afterschool snack . He never talks to us how he use to . He doesn't even pick us up from school anymore . He gave me a credit card with $500 on it . He makes me gather up my sister and we ride in an Uber together . When we get home he leaves cash on the counter for us to order food or have an uber take us out to eat . 

When we get back from Red Lobster , I tell my sisters it's time to go to bed . I walked past my dad once again drinking . I decided to be bold . " Dad I don't think it's a good idea to drink that often , he turned around to look at me . He looked at me like I was crazy  . What the hell ? who are you trying to control . I felt glass rush upon me I felt like I was going through a tornado . He threw his glass bottle at me . My body slammed to the ground . He walked over to me and kicked me about 10 times in a row . He said don't ever question me , I'm the daddy not you . " How did you eat tonight " me , so if you ever try to tell you what to do , it WILL be MUCH WORSE . I quietly peeped " I don't want to lose you , like I did mom . His jaw dropped he didn't know wat to feel . Once again he walk over me crying and gets a new bottle .

I attempted to get up , I was bleeding, bad  . I was wondering if my sisters were sleep . Then to my rescue Angel , Savannah , and Kennedy running . Angel goes to her room and grabs her first aid kit that she uses to play with her dolls . They covered the bandage . You would probaly wondering why I haven't called defax yet because he pays for everyting . If I tell defa , my sisters and I will be separated that's the last thing I need . And plus I know this is crazy but I think that I can change my dad back to his old self.  He never hit any of my other sisters  but me ecept for that one time he choked Angel . I feel like this is my fault . I can't let my sisters life be bad because of me and I have to protect myself from my dad . I still love him with all my heart he just needs a break from me . I packed up all my stuff in a suitcase took tha money on the credit card and I few extras leftover from dinner and I was on my way . 

I took an Uber it was about 2:30am , I got in . After we wre a fw blocks from the house he pulled over and said " Come here ' . I was kinda of confused ' No! , take me to where I need to go "( btw I was going to a hotel) . He locked the doors and looked in the mirror at me , I think you know where this leads . He climbed in the back seat he then touch my shoulder . There's nothing more to say from there he stole my virginity . He left me in the street and drove off quickly . It didnt take him more than 5 minutes to do everything he needed to do.