Wave After Wave

Chapter 4

The waves crashed on the shore, seagulls squaked over the ocean, Dylan is slightly snoring as he sleeps beside me, and the sun slowly begins to rise over the horizon. I wasnt able to get very good sleep this morning. My nightmare from last night kept me up a lot.

  Waves crashed harshly on the shores and loud thunders shook the earth. I run and run to get away from the rising waters. I scream for help, scream for Dylan but I'm all alone. Running with all the energy I have left, I make it to a dead end on a cliff. The water still comes. It gets closer and closer.

  I wake up right as I was going to be swallowed by the water.  I have a feeling this is the first of many more nightmares to come. Sweat covers my head, my hands shake, and my breathing comes out heavy.

  Dylan begins stirring in his sleep. I look over and he's running his eyes and yawns. It's so cute! Wait, what? Well, what can I say though? Guys are cute sleepy. Especially their sleepy voices. I look back at the ocean again. The sand beside me moves a little bit and I can see Dylan sitting beside me from my side glances.

"We should get started on the shelter." I said and got up from my position. I began working immediately. Dylan gets up a little after and silently gets to work. That's how it goes for a while until we decide to go get some more supplies.

    We walked for many more hours. I came to an abrupt stop when I started to lose oxygen. I quickly hunted for my inhaler in my bag but my hands are shaking too much. Dylan grabs my bad from me and hands me my inhaler. I take it and take deep breaths.

"Thank you." I said when I'm able to breathe again. Dylan nods and hands me my bag back.

  There's this feeling I have that Dylan doesn't like me. I mean, why would he right now? I'm the one who got him stuck here. He says I shouldn't blame myself. Maybe because he knows I have trouble breathing when I'm really nervous or upset.

My walking stopped when I hit something hard. I shook my head and then looked up to see Dylan. He was looking at me like he was studying me. I shifted my gaze and shifted from one foot to the other, getting a little uncomfortable from his stare.

"Dylan?" I spoke, but kind of sounded like a squeak.

"Stop." He said.

"What?" I asked.

"You need to stop blaming yourself for this. I can see it and you can't deny it. You have this look like your guilty, but you're not. Those drunken idiots are the one who caused this."

"But I was the one who got YOU stuck here.  You dived in when you could have called for help or something. I'm not blaming you at all when I say this. This is all me."

"No it's not. I jumped after you because I wanted to." Dylan said.

"Why?" I asked.

"There are reasons. Maybe some day I can tell you." Dylan responded. I nodded and looked down.

"Just please don't blame yourself...for any of this." Dylan's voice softened.

"Okay." I whispered. Dylan turned around again and began walking. It's a lot easier said than done but it's not impossible to try.

  Dylan has earned so much trust and respect from me. He's so sweet about this whole thing. Well, I think he's sweet about it. Every time I freak out, he calms me down. And I guess I kind of know it's not just because my breathing problems. He looked like he really cared about me.

  To be honest, I haven't felt like many people cared about me. My ex boyfriend destroyed a lot of trust for me. I'll get into that maybe a little later. I still thin about it sometimes and I try my best not to. I didn't want to talk to any guys at my school or just any in general besides my family and a few of my really good friends. They were the ones that really mattered. But it doesn't change the fact I don't trust well and I don't have my insecurities.

Now, when I feel like Dylan cares about me, it's a good thing. I don't have that feelings from a lot of people that I meet. They probably do care about me but I just can't find a way to trust them. I trust Dylan. There's not really a reason I can pinpoint right now. Something about him just makes me feel safe and I'm able to put my life in his hands.

After all he's done for me, how can I not?

Hours passed since our rest and our journey through the forest. Our shelter is built. Not the best, but we could always make improvements later. Now, Dylan and I sit here just staring at the ocean. I find my myself doing that a lot lately. Especially when I'm doing my deep thinking.

"Do you care if I sing?" I asked. I looked at Dylan and he shook his head. I turned my head and looked at the ocean before closing my eyes.

"Lost in innocence
Take this fragile heart
We know where we've been
All these miles together" I sang. I opened my eyes and stared at the ocean once again, ready to start singing again. Before I could sing the next verse, Dylan beat me to it.

"Fall into my skin
Crash into these arms
We know how this ends
Fade into forever" I looked at him as he sang. His eyes stared straight ahead. Saying his voice is good is an understatement. His voice is amazing.

"The road is wild
We're holding for life
Like a child
Who's not afraid to cry
We're escaping to a place they'll never know
Just you and me love
We are almost home." We both sang together. Our voices together sounded perfect in my opinion. I wanted to sing more but I just couldn't find my voice to be able to. The sun is completely down now and the tiredness has finally hit me. I silently yawned and rested my head down and rolled to my side. Sleep soon took over.

"Goodnight, Dylan." I sleepily said. I heard his voice faintly say good night before sleep completely took over.

My sleep was interrupted from my shaking and the coldness of the wind. Goosebumps covered my body and my teeth chattered. My eyes remained closed as I try to sleep through this coldness. I feel warm arms wrap around me and pull me close.

My breath hitches in my throat and I freeze. But is I soon move closer to Dylan and burry my face in his chest. This definitely helped and sleep took over once again on this chilly night.

  No, I didn't have time to think about how close Dylan and I are right now. But I know I enjoy the feeling of his arms around me.

What holds tomorrow, well that's a mystery.

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Long time no update am I right?
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