It's Your Fault - NovaHD

Chapter 1

 Its not my fault right? I didn't want this to happen, it just did! If it’s anyone's fault it's fucking James's. If he hadn't groped me that one night, making me try to get revenge on him, then this would have never happened. I mean who could have known that the moment I accidently fell asleep on him that night, it sealed my fate. How could I have guessed that we would just happened to wake up at the same exact time. That the moment our eyes would meet I would feel something, something that I shouldn't have.

 

  Affection.

 

  Not the friendly, totally straight type of affection, but the 'I might be slightly gay' one. That I barely heard him whisper 'what the fuck' before falling asleep again, because of the amount of emotions that came over me in those few seconds. That I tried to push it all down, so I could extinguish the small flame that started to burn in my heart.

 

  It would have worked too, if it wasn't for me baiting him into fighting with me weeks later. That seeing that spark of anger that made his eyes come to life, intoxified me with it's power. So, maybe it's slightly my fault too, but if James wasn't so fucking easy to get riled up, there would, once again, be no problem. Now, I'm the one that has to deal with this shit, while James gets off free for what he did to me. This is complete bullshit! Even some of the fans have started to see past the facade, calling our paring 'NovaHD' and making erotic fanfics (Not that I would know) And now here we are again, James pissed off and me lov-hating every minute of it.

 

"Aleks, you have to be fucking kidding me, I've explained this to you three damn times!" James yelled, his eyes quickly evolving into a fiery pit.  

 

  "Explained what?" I question, in an innocent voice, knowing that it will only make him angrier.

 

   "Have you even been listening to me at all this whole time?" I let a small smirk quickly graze my lips before answering.

 

   "Honestly, I stopped paying attention about an hour ago." James slams his hands againt the table, pushing himself up.

 

   "I'm so fucking done." He says before storming out of the office room. I sigh, as I hear him opening the door to the backyard. 'He's probably going to try to call down." I think as I see Eddie walk into the room.

 

  "Dude, you really pissed James off this time" He giggles, as he takes a seat on the chair next to me.

  

  "Yah, well he need to learn to be more calm and understanding" I reply, pretending it was completely his fault.

 

  "Understanding my butt. I heard it all, I'm pretty sure everyone in Colorado did too. You were making him angry on purpose, and you know it." I turn to look at him, knowing that he could see right through my actions.

  "Ok well, maybe I was, but I mean he should learn to control his anger better." I answered as Eddie scoffed

 

   "I'm surprised he didn't punch you in the face. If it was me, I think I would have for all the shit you pulled" I huffed as I turned away from him, slightly annoyed.

 

  "Well, I've got to go pick up Natalie. Oh, and try to lay off James for a little, ok?" I rolled my eyes and I got up.

 

  "Whatever man." I give Eddie a hug, before walking him to the door.

 

  "I'm serious, Aleks. Back off of him, just a bit." I don't say anything, instead I give him a small nod, showing I will try to do just that. I mean its not like I want to get him legitimately upset or stressed out, I just like it when he gets all wired up. I grab a Pepsi Max for the fridge before heading towards the backyard to go talk to James.

 

  As I open the door, I see James off in the corner of the yard leaning on the fence. I close the door behind me as I quietly approach, trying not to alert him. When I'm about a foot away from James, I stop and observe him. His eyes were closed, head tilted towards the sky as if he was watching the clouds. His arms were inside his pockets, his whole body looking at relaxed, the exact opposite of how it was just a few minutes ago. I felt myself start to smile, as I saw him slowly push off the fence and stretch before opening his eyes.

 

  "What do you want Aleks?" A small amount of frustration was heard in his voice as he looking at me.

 

  "Nothing, just making sure I didn't cause you to have an aneurysm." I laugh, watching his lips turn into a slight smile, before turning back into a frown.

 

  "Yeah, well I'm fine now, but seriously it's so fucking difficult to work with you sometime." I look at the ground for a bit, before looking back at him.

   "Yah, I know. That's why I wanted to say, I'm sorry." James tilted his head to the side, slightly confused.

 

   "Its ok, man. Just try to not be so clueless next time." He smiles brightly, showing that he's only teasing. I smile back at him, taking a small step closer.

   I'm not sure if it was the way the sun shined on James, or just the happiness from knowing I didn't really upset him, but before I knew it I had my arms around him, pulling him towards me into a warm hug. We stayed like that for a few seconds, before James pulled away, heading back inside. As I watched him go, I realised that maybe this feeling of affection for him was something more....And that really scared me.