Well as every girls wants is a guy in your life unless you prefer something else than I totally support that... anyways I myself want a guy who is my kind of perfect but every time I find someone that meet that standard they always just like me as friend. Like noooo why??? I thought you were someone special but okay we can be friends that's cool... AWKWARD I mean any guy I have liked and I have told I liked them and just to find out that they don't like me back I get so awkward around them especially when they want to friends and don't run away screaming... -__- I actually had one guy who I liked and he liked me and things went from there.
He was the thing that kept me happy and I never wanted to let him go. We had some fights but we kept it together. We dated for a little back in 8th grade until I broke things off because of my depression and everything going on we stopped talking for half a year until I finally realized that I missed him and I texted him asking him if we were able to be friends and all he could say was "Really?" And I said "yes really" and we just had a convo after that.
After weeks of talking I soon realized I liked him and I guess I just didn't want to after everything that I put him through I mean I'm the one who broke things off and now I still want him? Like no he was so into to me and he was angry when I pushed him away. I felt so stupid but then I found out he liked me too because his best friend asked him if i was the girl that he liked way too loud and I just remembered being like "Omg he still likes me!" I was in shock. After a while we just flirted back and forth. I remember for one of my Choir concert I asked him to come and I just remember being on stage singing wondering if he was there and just being backstage like "what if he's not here ugh he doesn't care" but after it he was there and all I could say was "you came" and I just remember him saying yea and walking of and after I found my parents he came back with roses and I was just so shocked.
Literally what happened
Me: *surprised look*
Me: You got me flowers *Blushes*
Him: I'm just trying to be nice *gives me the most amazing smile*
My head: Suuurrree "Nice"
I swear he only said that because of my parents were standing right near us. Oh geez don't get me started with everything they said to me afterwards, they weren't like "who's he? Is he your boyfriend! What's his name? When can we meet him?!" No they're weren't nice about it actually they don't want me date until after high school but seriously it was so rude they want me not date and focus on school I just can't I need so fun in life! But anyways that day was amazing but my Birthday was even more amazing.
On my birthday He gave me a really sweet note on my birthday and he said happy birthday but that's not what made my birthday amazing those were extras the day after my birthday was my Quinceañera if so of you don't know what that is it's basically a sweet 16 for Mexicans but on their 15 birthday. He went to my party and he wore a tux and he wore Bow tie like I asked him too😍 When I was sitting at my special table he went over there and gave me my present and it was matching pair of earrings and a necklace and literally the most beautiful piece of Jewelry I have seen. Dummy left the price on there I mean he spent over $300 on me like dude I can't believe it, he told my best friend that he had to ask him mom to chip in and he was going to get me more stuff but he didn't have any money left because he spend every single dime he had from his allowance. I wonder if he'd saved up just for it? But he told me I looked amazing 3 times and my best friend's mom said that he looked at me like any girl should be looked at by a guy. I was so in love with him but he didn't know that actually never mind my best friend accidentally told him weeks before my party.
I bet most of you guys are like "Aww how cute! They'll last!" But sorry to break it to you guys actually a week and a half after my birthday on September 29 I told him I love you but all he said was okay but he gave me this smile that I can't forget but later that day he asked me to go to lunch with him but I declined because I didn't have money and I didn't have my lunch pass so I didn't want to risk getting in trouble... I told my best friend about it but she told me he was going tell me that he loved me but I ruined it and things kinda went downhill... he stopped talking to me... I texted him asking what's up he never answered. He became a complete asshole to everyone especially my best friend... I'll never know why... I became so depressed again I fell into a dark hole... I actually wanted to kill myself. I was done with everything. But I didn't luckily I just thought of positive things in life. But I still can't be in the same room as him. I start shaking uncontrollably and I just have an anxiety attack. I mean I was in the talent show for my school and I remember opening the door to get water and right when I opened the door there he was standing there and he gave me a soft smile but my smile dropped and I just walked right past him and I went to get water but when I came back there he was sitting there eating I drank my water and ran out and went into a practice room and just sat there shaking and crying I couldn't help it. And then I remembered I was wearing the necklace he gave me and it made it worse. But I calmed down and I got up and went back and he was gone thank the Lord but his backpack was there. And then it hit me he told me last year that he was going to help with the talent show sophomore year. So when I got on stage I was nervous as hell and I'm never nervous In front of a crowd ever. He just made it worse. Ugh now I have to worry about next year in school because if he has a class with me I'm going to freak out.
Sorry about the drag but I honestly had to get that out of my chest maybe later I will talk about guys again maybe get an update about Him but who knows.
The song is With Love by Christina Grimmie and I wanted that song because it just amazing and Christina will be missed so much she was such an amazing singer. RIP Christina Grimmie 💗
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