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|| Chapter 5: A New Life? ||

- Dan -

Once an ambulance arrived I still refused to leave Phil's side. My manager knows how stubborn I am and when I said that I was not leaving Phil, he knew I wouldn't change my mind. He called off the concert due to 'personal issues', and he told me that I could go to the hospital with Phil but I had to call him later to sort some things out. I climbed into the ambulance sitting beside the nearly dead boy and held his hand. I couldn't stop staring at him.

Phil's skin was pale, especially his face which looked as if it had no blood in it at all. His hands were cold and limp, just like his legs, which were covered by some thin trousers. The nurse that was in the back of the ambulance with me wanted to check his vitals, and she said I had to move, but I didn't want to leave Phil. A part of me wanted to stay with him and never let go, but another part was saying that it would be the best for him if the nurse helped him. I moved to the end of the ambulance, not looking away from the boy.

The ambulance finally arrived at the hospital and Phil was rushed through the doors. I followed behind him, trying to keep up with the doctors and nurses and of course, Phil.

- Phil -

I woke up in a hospital, what am I doing here?

All these questions are going through my head and I open my eyes to try get some of them answered. I look around the room and see a boy lying in the corner asleep on a chair, and upon further inspection I see that it is indeed, Dan Howell. Well I think it is and it looks like him, my vision is still a bit blurry. I hear footsteps and then a nurse appears at the door, she looks at me with a sympathetic smile, I hate those. The smiles where people pity you, feel sorry for you. I never asked for pity, I never asked for any of this, I never asked to be born.

She walks over to me and sorts a few of the wires attached to me then starts talking to me in a informative way.

"Well Philip, you had quite a nasty fall and then when we checked you over, we noticed you had quite a lot of injuries. Now I think you will know a lot more than me when it comes to how you got those injuries, but you fell quite hard and it seems like you have further damaged your body, including your arms, legs, and head. You will have to be careful when walking and you will not be able to walk for long periods of time, that goes for your arms as well, no using them to carry heavy objects, and no using them for long amounts of time. You will need a lot of help during your recovery time, and a lot of rest, especially for that head injury of yours." She went on and on talking about how badly broken I was, but in all honesty, I was just concentrating on how cute chair boy looks when sleeping. The nurse began speaking again, and this time I paid a little bit more attention.

"He's been there all night, waiting for you to wake up. At around 4AM he passed out after I had promised to wake him if you woke up. Oh yeah, I promised him." She walked over and shook Dan until he woke up. He looked at me and we made eye contact. I gave him a small smile while he started to stretch and walk over to me.

"Hey Phil, I hope you're feeling better now, well as well as you could be. Oh god I'm sorry I'm so awkward it's just that I was scared and now I just want you to be okay and I'm probably annoying you right now an-"

"Dan, it's fine, I'm fine, everything is fine, you don't need to worry anymore." I interrupted him to speak, and although I said everything was fine, I don't know if it is. Once I've recovered, I'll have to go back to Damien, and he will know (or already knows) that I ran away. Just thinking about him makes me start to cry, I don't think I'll be alive by the time Damien finishes with me. I'm such a disappointment that I can't even run away properly without mucking up. Gosh, what have I done?

"How about I leave you boys alone and come back later with food and some painkillers?" The nurse says as she leaves the room. It's just me and Dan alone now, sitting in silence and both of us avoiding each others gaze. He moves from where he was standing and sits on the end of the bed.

"Look I'm really sorry for being such a burden and I promise when they let me leave, I'll leave and you will never have to see me again." I said, breaking the silence. In all honesty I really don't want to leave him and have to go back to Damien. Especially since I know what is coming if I go back with Damien. Should I just tell Dan the truth or keep it all a secret? But if Damien ever found out if I told Dan, he wouldn't just hurt me, he would also hurt Dan. And that is something that I will not let happen. Ever.

"If you want to go, I wont stop you. However, I want you to stay. I kinda like you. As a friend though not that way oh my god I'm not like that, not that there is anything wrong with being gay its just not me okay? Anyway I could let you stay with me and we could like be friends I guess? I understand if you don't want to though." The boy at the end of the bed replied with. He's not gay? Guess that puts sex off the table. Jokes. I'm not sure if I should stay with him. I just met him but somehow i would trust him with my life, I kinda already did,

"Are you sure? I mean that's really nice of you, and I promise I wont bother you much. Thank you so much. Handhug?" Dan smirks at me and gives me a proper hug. He is so warm and cuddly, I melt into his touch and the hug lasts longer than I thought. He smells so good oh lord.

I hear the door open and the nurse from before walks in.

"I brought you in some lunch and some painkillers. If you feel better after you've eaten then I can get all the papers you need to be discharged and you can leave later. You will need someone to look after you though after being discharged, who shall I put down on the paper as your carer?" The nurse says as she sets down a food tray on the bedside table.

"Dan Howell. Put down Dan Howell as his carer."

WHAT?! I told him I didn't want to be a bother and he goes and says he will be my carer?! At least it's Dan and not Damien. While in my own thoughts I see the nurse leave and Dan look back at me. He hugs me again once he checked that no-one else was in the room. I could get used to this. I like it. A lot.

I like him. A lot.