I don't know yet

Yesterday

Note: This actually happen yesterday when I was going home. I'm going to tell you what happen & I'm m going to write a poem on what I think was going on his head.
So I was waiting for the train & some guy walk pass me & I look up & he looks at me for a second & kept walking. I look that the thing that tells you when the train was coming. It said it was coming in 1 min. & I looked at the guy again & he was just looking at the tracks. And the looked at me & then look at the train tracks again & my heart starts racing. No one was pay attention to him, but me. The train was coming & he's at the edge of the platform just starring at the tracks. He turn around & stares at me. His back is toward the platform & he train is coming & my heart is racing. I wanted to cry because I think he was gunna kill himself, but when the train came closer & just walks away from the platform.

I just wanted my existence to be deleted
I just wanted to say goodbye
No one pay attention to me
Expect for this one girl

She kept looking at me
I think she know what I'm about to do
I just want my pain to go away
I'm dying

I'm fucked up
I see the train coming
I'm standing at the edge of the platform
Just waiting

Waiting for the train just to hit my body so I can finally stop being a "mistake"
I turn my head
The girl is still looking at me
She nervous

You can tell
She playing with something in her hand
She the only one that notice me
The keeps looking at the train

I don't want her to see this
But my suicidal thoughts are still in my head
She wouldn't understand
I can't...

I can't do this
I can't jump or fall in front of the train
If she notice me
Then someone else will too

I just need to stop thinking dark thoughts
I'm here for a reason
I just need to find it
I need to go home and this whole thing over

I'm worth living.