Lauren is the first born, so naturally you must love her.
Rachel was perfect, but even when it is obvious she hates you, you still love her.
Kara is the baby of the family.
Michelle, Mandy, and Jolene aren't you children, so you have no resentment towards them.
But me.
Maybe I remind you of some unwanted past.
Was I the reason for the drugs? What about leaving us. I know it was jail, but you told your 12 year old to watch her 7 and 2 year old sisters for how long? That's right you didn't know.
"Don't call Nini." she said. Dad assumed Leigh was watching us.
So there was 3 kids under the age of 12 getting up and going to school everyday as if our mother, whom is supposed to watch and protect us, wasn't hauled off to jail.
Was it my fault she did the drugs?
"no, it was because she lost Katherine." everyone told me.
I wish I could believe that.
But you see. I was a twin, but Hannah, the twin, died in the womb. that caused problems with your body. That caused you to lose Katherine. Is that why you hate me?
You remind me constantly. Im not good enough. Blame me for things. Remind me that im not skinny. You say it as if its a joke, but it hurts.
