Forever Alone

Forever Alone - Part 2

Today, he was unexpectedly late, he came while I was writing in my diary coz’ I thought that he wouldn’t come anymore. I was surprised so I immediately kept my diary under my pillow.

“How are you?” He said.

“I’m perfectly fine” I said. But at the back of my mind I was thinking “I was perfectly fine until you came.”

“Sorry I was late, got some errands today.” He said.

“No worries, I don’t care anyway.” I said while looking at my laptop.

He giggles and said “You know what, you’re really like that.”

“Is there any problem with it?” I said it with annoyance.

“No” He said.

“You said you won’t judge me, but I think you are” I said.

“What I mean is that I like you the way you are” He said.

“Okay, shut up already” I said.

                After he said that I got an awkward feeling and shy at the same time. I don’t know what to do, so I made myself look like I’m busy so that my awkwardness won’t get obvious. So I did something on my laptop, but I’m just actually typing and clicking nothing.

“What are you doing?” He said.

“I’m just browsing the web” I said.

“Since, you’re already browsing the web, I think it’s a good idea if we can also be friends online, so that we can still have communication even if we don’t get to see each other” He said and seems like he’s so excited.

                Gosh, here it goes again, trapped in the situation, I don’t know what to say, should I agree to it or not?  I was thinking until he said “I’m going to add you already and it’s for you to decide if you will accept it or not, whatever your decision is fine with me.”

                Whew! Finally I’m relieved I was saved, saved by itself, yeah, so I still need to decide but I think that is the easy way around than deciding on the spot. Every time I see it when I’m online I can’t help thinking about it. It’s like the notification is provoking me to decide and I still can’t choose. The next morning, I woke up very early because I can’t sleep and decided to breathe some air outside. The hospital has a beautiful view that you can see the entire town. Of course, there’s the Eiffel Tower, I never got tired too see it, I’ve always been in love to it the day I saw it when my parents brought me there. The hospital has also a garden where you can stay and relax. The hospital where I’m staying right now was known to be the best hospital in our country. But even if my parents have brought me to the best hospital, it still not certain if they can cure me. I got carried away because it feels so relaxing and it’s been a long time since I went outside, I didn’t notice that I was there the whole morning. While I was going back at my room, I saw Xander going somewhere, but I didn’t bother to ask him and he suddenly saw me. He immediately run to me and said “I checked your room and you were not there, I thought something had happened to you”

“And what do you think had happened to me?” I said with a puckish forehead.

“I don’t know, I was just really worried, you got tripped over the stairs the first time I saw you.” He said.

“Not because you have seen me like that, it doesn’t mean that I’m very weak, y’know!” I said then I went straight in my room.

                Of course, he would follow me, obviously, “Okay, I’m sorry” He said then Xander handed me something, a lock with an unusual design and a key that has an angel wings. It looks so unique and it seems like it’s the only one in the world and I was wondering why did he gave it to me.