Another World Another Tale(book 1)

Chapter 1- A Stressful Begining

Father died only a week ago, luckily, the queen has been able to watch Pap since, he was told Father was working over time on a new experiment.
Well, I just went over to go see Pap, and well, I did it. I erased Father from his mind. Completely. He doesn't know he ever existed now. God, I already feel horrible about it. But I couldn't tell him, I couldn't. After Asriel, I can't stand to see Pap like that again.... Ever. I'm glad I have Alphys though, she's been really supportive on my decision.
We spent the last week working with magic instead of the determination project, to get the spell right. Now that it's done, I don't know if I want to go back to working with determination. I don't think I can. Knowing what it can do if you take to much. But than again, everything can do that, kill you.
I haven't told Alphys that I'm quitting yet. She'll understand though, she always those. She'll leave a space open for a lab assistant, for me, no matter what. She'll probably even let me hang around the lab, just to keep each other company.
Walking from the castle now, doesn't feel write, seeing the core, going through it, feels terrible. The king and queen said they can keep Pap for as long as I need to get over the death, which I thank them for. They did the same thing a year ago with Asriel.
I hate the idea of having to tell everyone to never mention father to Pap, I feel like it's disrespectful to him. But I can't take this back. I can't ever let him know.
But Pap won't be 11 forever, I can't protect him forever. Once he's an adult I can't watch him every second, can't put a filter on his ears either.
Outside the lab now, two more steps, I'll be inside, Alphys will understand why I am quitting. I just have to keep repeating that to myself. She'll get it more than I do. She may even know what I'm about to do already. She may I filled out the paper work, only needing me to put a signature here and there. Probably not that good though, but she'll understand, she'll get it.
"Sans? How'd it go? Is Papyrus alright?" Alphys calls, running over to me as I walk in.
"Gr-great Al, all ac-acco-according to plan..." I say, taking her into my arms for a hug.
"Sans, your eyes are glowing, you're not alright." She says giving me a quick hug and than stepping back to get a look at me
"No... I'm not..." I mutter, looking at the ground, trying to stop my eyes.
"It's okay, you did what's best." She says in a kind voice, hugging me again,
"It's not okay, I to-took hi-his dad from him..." I say in a whisper, not hugging her back.
"C'mon, let's go sit down." She says, pulling me upstairs, she was about to open the door that said Gaster, but she didn't, and opened the one next to it, in this room was a couch, a box, and a usually empty book shelf. Normally the books are on the ground, but now they were all put away.
"someone been going through my stuff?" I ask, trying to laugh,
"I got bored, and came in here and cleaned up. Do you mind?" Alphys says blushing,
"Of course not. I've been meaning to clean up in here for a while." I say, going over to the couch
"That would never happen." She says laughing slightly, sitting next to me.
"So, I have, a, un, a request..." I mutter,
"First, your eyes have softened, and second, what is it?" She asks,
"W-well, I want, to stop, uh, working here. At least for a year..." I say, shaking my head at myself, when was it for at least s year. Walking here it was forever. Eh, whatever I say now, probably won't matter.
"Of course, I wouldn't expect you to keep working. Especially on the determination project." She says nodding,
"Th-thanks, you don't, don't know how hard, how hard it was to say that." I say, chocking on my words
"Sans, can I ask you something?" She asks, now looking a bit confused,
"Of course, anything.." I say, giving a forced chuckle,
"Are you sure you're alright. I mean, you're eyes have been glowing sure, but you haven't really cried, at all. I mean, you don't have to keep a wall up forever you know. I'm here for you. And you know, at least here, you're safe to cry, Pap isn't around. You don't have to pretend your dad never existed." Alphys says, her voice soft and kind. I nod,
"I know, th-thanks Al..." I say, my voice cracking,
"Sans, you know, who probably hasn't gotten ear of your dad? Besides Papyrus of course." Alphys asks, looking worried again,
"Everyone knows, unless they live out of the loop." I say, in a rude tone, which was accidental, Alphys luckily didn't look hurt.
"Your mom isn't in the loop you know. You haven't been to see her a month." She says, I shake my head
"I can't be the one to tell her. Last time I saw her it ended in a fight. I'm sure she's still mad at me." I say, trying to convince myself more than her.
"Sans she's your mother. She wouldn't stay mad at you for a month. And I know you're not mad still. You weren't even mad that day. You were just frustrated. C'mom, go see her. You don't even have to tell her." Alphys begs, I shrug
"Al, I can't..." I was going to say more, but I couldn't get the words out
"Because you're scared you'll hurt her. I know, you've told me it before. It was your father's idea to separate. She still loved him like when they first met. Sans don't forget I've been here since you were younger than Pap. And I'll be here for you always. Just please go visit her. Talk about anything. The flowers, your brother. Just talk." She urges.
"Thank you." I say simply, hugging her
"Huh? You're welcome?" She says, slightly confused, hugging me back. "But why?"
"Because, you know everything. There isn't one thing about me you don't know." I say simply, letting go of her. "My eyes cool?"
"Yeah, your pupils are returning." She says,
"Good, I don't want her to see I'm upset, at least not right away." I say standing up.
"You'll go?" She asks happily.
"Yeah, I'll go, don't look so smug about it." I say teasingly,
"I'm not," she says, a small smile appearing.
I nod, leaving the small office and than leaving the lab, to see the river person, other wise known as my mother.