Ugly

Jealous

Today was my big day to talk to dior. His nickname is dior because he gave me a card that said so. He works in this fancy perfume store it sells guys and girl perfume. Anyway I'm inspired from two actresses(Dominique Swain;Alicia Silverstone), and i wanted to get some glasses because they wear them in a certain movie. Anyway I got them before i went to macys were "Dior" works, i seen him and he past me a couple of times but didn' t bother to say hi or even look at me. I was devasted so me and my friend,(the pretty one), we went near the counter he was working at and smelled perfumes, then he came over and said, "Can I help you"? And i was super nervous I stuttered like crazy saying, "Y-yea ,were-were just l-looking". My friend (Sara) looked at me and smiled and so did I, when I looked back at " I seen his perfect face look at her and smirk really quickly😡. My friend claims, he smirked at her because he knew her and him knew i was nervous talking to him, yea right. Anwyhow I was thinking "oh no,it's starting again". So we left and i was talking to her and we decided i should write him a note saying hes very attractive,which he is. He has jet black hair, super ice blue eyes, tall, lean, and hes always wearing s black suit😍. Anyhow I wrote on a perfume card with perfume on it, and i was nervous, I felt like an earthquake was going on inside my stomach. But I kept saying to sara "I'm going to do it". I kept saying it as we were walking. We made a plan that when I gave him the note we would get away as fast as we could. So I went up to him and said so quietly "I wanted to give you this". He said "what"?, in such a deep voice, and i gave it to him and scurried off luckly there were escalators, I went up one flight, fell because I waa trying to get away, then another so i was 2 flights above his floor, but I notice sara wasn't there. I called her on the phone and she said she went the other way outside the mall while i went the other way up stairs, I told her to come up stairs, and i hung up. As i was waiting I seen him walk past the escalator but he didnt look up thank god,and he was looking for something on the second floor he works on the first and he never went up there, maybe me? When Sara came up she told she saw something funny. She said when she went on the second floor she seen him look around for something she said me but...... I didn't think so i kinda did and kinda didn't after 20 minutes I went back down to his level, he wasn't there, I started to regret not going down there when he was looking for me but a least i gave him the note. We are going back to the mall next Saturday, so I will see him then. However, I have a feeling he is going to like Sara. Sara has been called pretty tons of times, me thats like saying you seen a rainbow at night. And a lot of times I liked a guys, about 4 , and 3 of liked laura because she was nicer and MORE attractive, and the other one was a player. She always told me to think positive I did all 4 times NOTHING. I can think positive for years and nothing good will happen. Then she said "It dosen't happen everytime". So all 4 of those times, were just nothing. She knows I'm right, but dosen't want to admit. Anyway, I don't think he likes me, I know he likes Sara whats new I really like him and still do but what is the point.......Maybe he was looking for me to give me the card back and say "You too young". Because he looks like 20 something, and i'm 13, yea its a teleiophilia thing I have it. Or he would say "I like the other girl". Him saying he like me is like saying Red isn't a color (I know stupid). But its 0.5 out of 100. Like Sara said next week we will find out but I already know what its going to be😖