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rest in peace

This...hurts me a lot but I want to write something to her.

Today, 4 April of 2016, my beloved and sweet aunt, Gosia, died , got killed.

I have now the full information of what happened.
(Message at the end)

Gosia and her husband and daughter went to Pakistan (her husband, Jimmy-his English name-, hometown) to celebrate their anniversary (of their marriage) .
One night they were going to a restaurant in their car when suddenly some cars tried to stop them and getting in their way, trying to rob them.
Jimmy seemed to understand the situation and tried to run away but unfortunately the men's passed through them and shot at them.

Jimmy got shot in the leg (and maybe another place I don't know) and Gosia... she was shot in the liver,stomach and more. Her six years old daughter, Alichia, fortunately didnt get hurt anywhere.
After that Jimmy who got shot did call the ambulance.
(Everything in front of their daughter)

They went to the hospital and Jimmy later was fine but he's at the wheelchair for now but Gosia was losing a lot of blood but went through the first surgery.
Later on she was transferred to another hospital to do a surgery to het liver and it was good but then.... her tension today was bad, and they gave her pills but that only made things worse (as my mom says , giving pills will not help but modify everything and give trouble to her heart- Something like that).

... Later...

We were eating dinner when Asia (my mom and Gosia's older sister) was calling my mom on Skype.
I understand polish so I knew was she said but I had to say to my dad.

"Gosia....she died" was the first thing Asia said. My mom later on cried "please Asia don't say that, you can't say that" and started crying, and soon me and my dad were all crying.

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My mom after crying and us too (dad,me) she started giving the message to Gosia's friends in London (where she and Jimmy+daughter live) and Asia would tell her father what happened.

The worst was to see my mom hurt and suffering, forced to say the same thing to everyone "Gosia died; Gosia died; Gosia..." and then tell the details....

My mom then cried out loud saying "these last night's I've been nightmares not sleeping at ALL, it seems as if I predicted everything " and "me and everyone (like Asia and her parents) couldn't even be there for her but only be in front of the computer and telephone waiting and waiting!!!"

And that's....true just..

Rest in piece Gosia Pomykala, 39 years old, married and with a six years old daughter, who lived happily in England. She was the sweetest person ever. She helped the neighborhood by taking care of all the kids even when she wasn't babysitter. She would buy everything to you just to make you happy and see you smile. She always wanted the best for her daughter, wanting her to feel like the happiest kid in the world. A great wife who did everything for her husband. She had the most beautiful smile ever and is so gorgeous, she has brown hair with blue+green eyes, with straight and white teeth, a great body. She always cares for everyone, even if you're a stranger ,she would help you at everything she could.

She was best aunt ever, actually....my favorite aunt...I love her and I always will.
But
But I won't ever see her smile again, her laugh again, feel her hugs, touch, her smell. Her eyes and her soft hair. Her voice. .... everything is just gone.

A girl called Alishia with only six years old, lost her own mother. She will live without her mother, without knowing how it is growing up with a mother. Sharing the news of having a new boyfriend, or the new group, about your period that started (lol), painting the nails together or just..... spending time with your mother.

Her husband, Jimmy, lost his wife, the person who he loved and cared so much. He's still in denial with everything and can't believe that his own love and wife disappeared like that. They were a great and happy couple who got ruined because of some dipshits and assholes who wanted to steal a fucking car those fucking shits.

I'm sure after they shot at a happy and normal family and destroying their whole life, stealing the life of a mother and wife of someone, they went to drink some beers or coffee.

I love my aunt and I still can't believe this happened... we can say I'm half in denial but the other half knows and cries and cries.

Right now I can't sleep because her face and memories come to my mind, and again, I cry.

If that time I went to England to visit her, I would be different, I would have said different things, it's not like I got mad at her or talked bad, that never happened, but you know.... I regret not saying anything, or at the airport saying I love her.

Just yesterday, I sent her a message saying i loved her so much.... but of course... she,,. Never read it....

I love you Gosia, please rest in peace, I love you.

and with this i'll be on a small hiatus on my writing, i dont feel like writing for a while